randomi've been thinking
cos sometimes i realise
somethings we do in a folly.
somethings we did cos we were childish.
somethings we never thought it mattered.
but as a matter of fact. it did.
sometimes i felt if i were to do it differently, perhaps it would turn out better
perhaps i wouldnt be feeling guilty or bad about it.
or i wouldnt even be stuck in this suckfest.
but reality is:
time cant go backwards.
nothing can change matters.
the only way out is to look forward.
and forget it all.
wad matters is living life now.
and making sure you wouldnt regret it.
wouldnt regret every single minute or second u're using the time for.
and wouldnt regret any actions u do.
i wonder if i were to count how many things i regret in life.
would it be a whole list?
seriously, i feel like i regret a lot.
perhaps i shud stop regretting.
and make full use of everything.
understand everything better.
and that also everyone has their life to live.
why not live mine to the fullest?
so yes.
i've gotta learn to live my life.
and treasure every minute.
and love myself.
and so.. the indulgence's going to continue!
hahahahaha
i was checking on the internet for princesses of china.
it was seriously random.
and i came upon someone called Princess Der Ling.
i read in wikipedia that she is of manchu origin.
and she lived and was educated in paris.
and served as a first lady-in-waiting for Empress Dowager Cixi.
and she wrote a book on her experience.
called 'Two Years in the Forbidden City'.
seems nice.
and the short notes (i think) from the link at wikipedia shows a lot about the manchu culture and their lives.
it's quite inspiring. and gives loads of room for imagination.
if i could i'd like to find the book.
but it's published in 1911.
i wonder i i'll ever be able to find it.
anyways. these days has been ok.
the home couch potato and emo-ing.
next week's another week to get broke.
but i'm looking forward to it.
loves=) muacks*
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