Reminiscing

okay, i've used this title for the gazillion-th time.
ok. so perhaps i'm exaggerating.
but seriously.
isnt it like sometimes u do things once,
and again.
and again/
and sometimes it'll feel like the umpteenth time.
and it suddenly doesnt become interesting.
and all the fun is sucked out of it.
what's left is snobs and arrogant people.
is it ridiculous? sometimes.
is it crappy and stupid? perhaps.
but that's how humans work.
some definitely dont ever believe in the 'once bitten twice shy' thing.
is it an addiction? i dont think so.

anyway, i was thinking on that topic.
like independence.
because i realise that i just cant do things on my own.
maybe dad's right.
sometimes i might rely on the people around me a bit.
but it's weird because i'm always at home.
and alone.
so chances are i can cook myself, i can do the laundry, i can get dirt.. dust.. off the floors, cushions, besheets.
but still.
it's the character issue.
and it's gotta change.

high school musical yesterday was sing-along.
on ch5.
and it was fun
cos ever since we watched the movie,
i've been addicted to the songs.
all that ryan and kimberly and krystal's been saying about how nice it was when they watched it on disney channel i didnt listen.
and my opinion took a drastic change when i got hooked onto it at staring at the 17 inch screen on the fourth floor for the loans at the school library.
and it felt great and different being able to sing-along.
haha.
okay.. i'm getting childish.
well, i'm feeling one too.

i hope the next will be out soon.

my cousin's going back to canada in 2 days.
i will definitely miss her.

national day's in 10 days.

my birthday's in 3 months (gosh tht's quick)

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♥ 10:35 PM

it's been a long time..

since i saw my cousin who migrated to canada.
it's been 13 years!
it feels kind of crazy when i saw her again.
because definitely we've changed.
i mean she was 9 and i was 6.
but everything went nice and it was great getting to see her again.
i mean through the 13 years, the feeling of missing someone slowly fades.
but i was happy to see her. and i still remember the times i called her jie jie.
haha.
sweet.


life's been monotonous.
no exceptionally crazy thing happened (other than what's written on the first paragraph of course)
and didnt feel bored to tears.
so it's been okay.
just that i'm starting to worry about our project.
cos we arent halfway there and we're only left with 5 weeks.
and i wonder if what we're doing would be enough.
i seriously wonder.
no offence, but it's hard to trust mr. and i definitely need a boost of confidence.

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♥ 10:37 AM

just for thought.

sometimes i wonder.
okay, maybe wonder too much.
i mean, it's like they always say that there is something that you are to do.
something that is your destined job.
something that you should know that is the right thing for you.
but thing is.
i'm still weighing my priorities.
and i cant help but wonder.
what is my destined job.
what is the right thing for me.

seriously, my self-actualization isnt doing so well.
i mean some people, it seems they knew they wanted to be figure skaters all their lives.
some loved music and wanted to be a world-renowned pianist.
some felt that being a teacher was nice and wanted to be one.
i dont know if it is i regret not doing some things when i was younger.
and yes, i am envious of those who can say that they hate having regrets and 'regret' definitely isnt in their dictionaries.

despite of that, somehow i know i should be happy and satisfied.
okay, i need to make full use of my time.

anyway, so far school's been okay.
the projects okay too.
going for our audit again next week or soon.
because we alr got one approval.
and have to wait for the next one.



aspiring versatile. not?

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♥ 3:19 PM

Still, Bored, Stoned.

Sat 14July2007
Went to watch Harry Potter: The Order of the Phoenix with krys.
the movie was funnier than the rest.
then we had MOS and ice-cream from the Hokkaido Fair.
and i got my pouch.
(:

Sun 15July2007
Sighs.
was late for church.
sighs.
but luckily the doors were still open.
and i and mom rushed in.
anyway, after church we went to aunty say's house cos granny says she cooked curry.
and then i and mom went to the interchange to get a french loaf and fruits(4kgWatermelon, 1kgLychee, 1kgMangosteen).
but curry was nice.
i missed it.
and bobby was so cute as usual.
other than the scratching.
sighs.


and aunty kathryn is back (:

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♥ 10:21 AM

reflections? and what-nots

i've been thinking.
it's my last year in poly.
and i'm getting old.
age=responsiblity
haha just qouting.
but i wonder.
what i should do after poly?
i'm feeling lost.
sighs.
it should be time to get dead serious.
sighs.
self-actualization for 4 years and still no results.
sighs.


some shoutouts!
i so love so hope so want:
the vocals; talents of soler, the wackiness of fall out boy, the optimism of mika, the luck of ashley albright in just my luck, the huskiness of damien rice, the sentiments of wave goodbye by steadman.

definitely more to come.

i want to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

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♥ 3:55 PM

glitches? big time.

this week has been okay.
yes, okay.
until today.
although when we went to do our audit on monday, we werent able to do the audit for the train station cos they didnt allow.
and we had to wait for approval.
but still.
today was okay when we were doing our audit.
until this afternoon.
i mean everything was going as planned.
everything was made and stuff and progress going okay.

sighs.
i still need the destress.
is it me or do i rant too much.
i really need the communication thing i guess,

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♥ 4:42 PM

it's important

cos it's time for us to do our part in saving the earth.
it's like shocking figures and crazy talks.
but yes, it's the truth.
like the aral sea.
i mean, it's like you'll see no see.
or you alr see no sea.
considering it's alr been evaporated or used dry till it's become 2..
and the water's getting lesser and lesser.
and in 15 years we wont see it anymore.
see? that's crazy. but the truth.

so..
seriously after all those concerts.
there are a few lessons to be learnt.
1. switch to compact flourescent bulbs. (cos they use lesser energy but same brightness)
2. set thermostat to 55 degrees fahrenheit when sleeping.
3. maintain properly inflated car tires.
4. set water heater temperature to 130 degrees fahrenheit.
5. choose seafood wisely.
6. buy EnergyStar appliances and electronics.
7. buy locally produced food and produce.
8. drink from reusable glassware.
9. walk, bike and carpool.
10. wash clothes with cold water.
etc...

the 24 hours are soon to be up.
the videos and saddening.
sighs.

Go Green!(:





http://liveearth.msn.com/




i'm feeling weird.
just a thought: i need to brush up my communication skills.
u think?

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♥ 6:36 PM

support Live EARTH


just as time is passing slow.
and all i can do is stone in lab everyday.
other than the weekends to look forward to.
perhaps.. there's something else to.

seriously.
fact: it's for the earth. it's about save our selves. it's about the bad stuff that global warming's doing to our lives. it's the act to create awareness.

thought: it's alr gotten its goal, which is to create awareness. people do realise with the adverts that something bad is happening. i mean it's either the one with the kids saying even the innocent ones realise it's bad. and the artistes saying how bad it is now that all the unusual stuff are happening. the natural disasters. and seriously, there are so many people performing. and definitely at least one would sound melodious to you, or anyone. so for sure u'll tune in to see it even if it were for one minute. and the bonus is that ch5's showing the full 24 hours (now dont rant about not being able to see your fave weekend shows, and dont worry, there's still ugly betty). so what's there to lose and what's there not to lose?

and surely, u'd understand why we're suffering more heat each day.

so go green.


http://www.liveearth.org/







i'm glad there's something for the weekends. non-stop.
am loving it.
go GREEN!


(:

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♥ 3:22 PM

Lady luck.

please shine on me.
things might get better.
other than the fact that i might get 'bruises' and stuff some time soon.
but yah..
other than that it's okay.
cos seriously there's nothing i can do but rant.

i've got to find stuff to do.
anyone could suggest anything i could do without games and youtube or crunchyroll.
i would be grateful.
best if it could last me doing it for a day.
that'll be perfecto.

i'm just glad that the audit's done.
and now it's the survey we have to stone and brainstorm about.
i wonder.
and i feel that my enthusiasm isnt as much as before.
seems like i'm tired? bored? whatnots.
but it's no good.
i've gotta last another 2 months.
or maybe 1 month and 28days.
sighs.

i need the destress so desperately.
what happened to sg being an island.
the beach feels so far.
is it the time problem or just the laziness of it all.
sighs.
and the sighing just isnt going to stop.

i seriously wonder how did the past mp/sip manage to get through the 4 months with smiles and everything.
and seriously. they WERE happy.
and i know that i am not happy.
that's the difference when your lab's in a much nicer and cosier and darker place.
it's just too bright and seen here.
there's no way to not be seen doing whatever you're doing.
yah.. so that means i have to be discreet.
whatever.



i need solace.
i need something cute.
omg.. something to lighten me up!!
i am pessimistic. for sure.

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♥ 8:58 AM

i bet this must be the unluckiest time of my life.
the darkest.
i so want to swear.
i'm hating this.
i seriously seriously HATE this.

grahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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♥ 11:38 AM

July is not at all sweet

it's sucky alr.
early in the morning.
i realised my bus card is out of cash.
i had to walk all the way to the mrt station to top up the card and back to the bus station, considering i only have cash on me.

thn as i thought everything would go back to place.
cos i reached school at quite a normal time (as in not late or anything)...

i mean seriously, it sucks being in school the whole day.
yes, the time is dedicated to doing your project.
and i do know that it is extremely important.
but try staring at the computer the whole day.
doing the same old stuff.
which the com could only be used for word.
or maybe some yahoo or google.
where you could only use the search engines.
and NOTHING else.
see? how fun!

and the worse part is.
i'm starting to hate it.
it's no use doing all the unnecessary stuff.
it's sucky alr.
anyway.
i understand now that all you have to do is not cover it up or anything.
but you have to just stick by the rules the whole day.
wow, am i the only one complaining.
it's the tradition for years right?
maybe 15 or 16, that's how long sch's been established.
but it's sucky.
i wonder what they'll get out of this.
i wonder how the sucky comments can get.
i wonder how much suckier it could get at the end of all of this.
i wonder why do i feel more and more like i'm a prisoner in this suckfest.
I SERIOUSLY WONDER!!!
oh..i have to be more observant? is that it.
SHEEESSSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh

i hate this.
i wonder how those ppl could enjoy it.
perhaps cos there wasnt the people coming ard.
and doing all those stuff.
but why.
why is this happening.




I HATE THIS.

smkfhvgbjuiuw8937487&*&&%^#c$hiL&%^$%##*#&HWXB


*if anyone needs explanation pm me. i should have a lot to say.

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♥ 11:04 AM

30june2007

was a saddening way to end the month of june.
nonetheless the end of GST being 5% (turns 7% on 1july2007)

1. there were loads of people everywhere.
i understand it totally.
cos i mean, although what mom says is right it's only worth it unless the stuff u buy are expensive..
eg. you pay an extra 20 dollars GST if u buy something that is 1000dollars.
i finally feel it on what they say: every penny counts.


2. kbo*
it was nice and everything.. i was late(sorry)..
but still the afternoon started nice and everything.
went to marina square.
we queued for our turn to get to the room, but it was all okay cos we chatted till our turn..
and we got in at 2.40pm, had our drinks and started our crazy singing..
until
someone came and said 'last song' at 6pm.
i was wondering.. they wrote 7pm right? all the time it's been 7pm right?
and when msTan called the person on the phone in the room the person just kept saying 6pm.. 6pm..!
feeling it was weird and everything...
we went to confront the front desk as it was supposed to be 7pm(all the signs and stuff and even the webby and the paper on their table) and there werent anyone else leaving and only us(discrimination?).
and she said stuff like: 'it counts from 2pm.. and not necessarily you would sing till 7pm. it doesnt mean definitely 2-7pm.'
and hell, i didnt understand what she was saying.
yes. i know it's counting from 2pm onwards even though we go in at 2.40pm.
but what does it mean about not necessarily you sing till 7pm.
and why are we kicked out at 6pm.
dont your paper write till 7pm?
and i dont see any asterik saying time could be changed without prior notice. i only see the one where the prices could be changed without prior notice.
so what was she saying???!!!!!


anyway bummed and grah and everything.
we just left.
wanted to call the HQ or something.
cos it was like we felt cheated and stuff.
but forget it.

went with mom and dad to get my mp3 player.


3. wrong color.
he gave the wrong color for my mp3
sighs.
and the best part was we went back after the discovery.
there werent any more of the color i wanted.
sighs.
so it was the call other outlets frenzy.
sighs.
anyways i have to wait till they have the color and i go exchange it.
sighs.



let july be a sweeter month.

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♥ 1:17 PM