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Tuesday, November 25, 2008
memories/and the past surges of interests
i was looking through my stuff in my room.
since it's really ermm, cluttered with stuff and all.
and i found a couple of notebooks.
okay, maybe not a couple.
in fact, quite a lot.
and the contents suddenly makes me feel, erm, odd.
cos it's all my drawings, writings and stuff.
and it's kind of amazing, to me, how much of it there is.
hidden in that corner of the room and stand.
so it seems i write a lot of erm, nonsensical stuff and draw a lot of erm, impressionist doodles.
but it's somehow cool.
haha maybe i should compile them someday and i'll be the only reader.
haha
it IS part of the stage in my life that i didnt have to care abt life and think abt stuff.
today's driving sucks.
and yes i totally blackedout/blankedout.
the guy could just kill me. i wouldnt complain.
i shouldnt be anyway. i am the one at fault.
okay this sucks.
sucks big time.
i was looking through my stuff in my room.
since it's really ermm, cluttered with stuff and all.
and i found a couple of notebooks.
okay, maybe not a couple.
in fact, quite a lot.
and the contents suddenly makes me feel, erm, odd.
cos it's all my drawings, writings and stuff.
and it's kind of amazing, to me, how much of it there is.
hidden in that corner of the room and stand.
so it seems i write a lot of erm, nonsensical stuff and draw a lot of erm, impressionist doodles.
but it's somehow cool.
haha maybe i should compile them someday and i'll be the only reader.
haha
it IS part of the stage in my life that i didnt have to care abt life and think abt stuff.
today's driving sucks.
and yes i totally blackedout/blankedout.
the guy could just kill me. i wouldnt complain.
i shouldnt be anyway. i am the one at fault.
okay this sucks.
sucks big time.
Labels: emotivities, rambles
♥ 11:42 PM
Sunday, November 23, 2008
my 'great' escape.
-chee 'wow' wa
met peinee yesterday.
went to kbox at cine.
waited stupidly at lvl4 with many others until realising only the lvl8 one was open.
haha.
anyway it was all the crazy screaming.
and i thought i heard a distinctively loud bleedinglove from next door.
thn rushed down to lvl6 and watch beverly hills chihuahua.
hahaha.
it was funny and cute and sweet.
but hmm. okay madagascar2 was funnier.
i just get the feeling it's overhyped.
the police dog was sweet though.
thn it was to bugis and it was raining.
and a really messy load of directions.
haha.
sighs next week's another long and errm busy week i guess.
x'mas come quick.
-chee 'wow' wa
met peinee yesterday.
went to kbox at cine.
waited stupidly at lvl4 with many others until realising only the lvl8 one was open.
haha.
anyway it was all the crazy screaming.
and i thought i heard a distinctively loud bleedinglove from next door.
thn rushed down to lvl6 and watch beverly hills chihuahua.
hahaha.
it was funny and cute and sweet.
but hmm. okay madagascar2 was funnier.
i just get the feeling it's overhyped.
the police dog was sweet though.
thn it was to bugis and it was raining.
and a really messy load of directions.
haha.
sighs next week's another long and errm busy week i guess.
x'mas come quick.
Labels: rambles
♥ 7:06 PM
Friday, November 21, 2008
boredd.
i stoned the whole day today.
rotted in front of the com and tv.
and when i get bored of those two, muaha camwhoring time.
okay it's stupid.
Labels: rambles
♥ 10:34 PM
u'll get by without me if you want.
am stoning at home today.
kind of feeling like the holidays are errm, not fulfiling.
other than the driving part that is.
wednesday's lesson was cool.
okay i did panic with the engine brakes and all.
and my clutch and brakes arent that good either.
and all of a sudden it seems the ppl at cdc are in a uber happy/good mood despite the rain and all.
i wonder whyy.
hahaha.
yup. overwhelmed.
went cycling with unimates on yesterday.
yup and i still cant chew properly.
sighs. it's been a week.
anyway, it was scary
we cycled from east coast park to changi airport.
and saw tons of sia planes leaving the airport.
and many others too.
the sound of planes taking off was surprisingly nice to hear.
okay odd.
anyway we covered 24km.
for 3 hrs.
and i admit i dont exercise often.
so yesterday i wasnt walking, er, steadily.
and when i reached home my thighs were painful.
that's when yoko yoko came into the picture.
anyway, it's all good.
today the thighs dont hurt anymore.
it's the butt bones that hurt.
sighs
and did i mention i totally busted the calories to the cookies&cream+caramel?
okay sin.
i want to watch beverly hills chihuahua!!!!
am stoning at home today.
kind of feeling like the holidays are errm, not fulfiling.
other than the driving part that is.
wednesday's lesson was cool.
okay i did panic with the engine brakes and all.
and my clutch and brakes arent that good either.
and all of a sudden it seems the ppl at cdc are in a uber happy/good mood despite the rain and all.
i wonder whyy.
hahaha.
yup. overwhelmed.
went cycling with unimates on yesterday.
yup and i still cant chew properly.
sighs. it's been a week.
anyway, it was scary
we cycled from east coast park to changi airport.
and saw tons of sia planes leaving the airport.
and many others too.
the sound of planes taking off was surprisingly nice to hear.
okay odd.
anyway we covered 24km.
for 3 hrs.
and i admit i dont exercise often.
so yesterday i wasnt walking, er, steadily.
and when i reached home my thighs were painful.
that's when yoko yoko came into the picture.
anyway, it's all good.
today the thighs dont hurt anymore.
it's the butt bones that hurt.
sighs
and did i mention i totally busted the calories to the cookies&cream+caramel?
okay sin.
i want to watch beverly hills chihuahua!!!!
♥ 2:34 PM
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
throw it away/forget yesterday
lesson today was errm tiring.
and i saw yiyun there.
i was feeling all lost and couldnt find the car.
and the circuit was uber crowded
and i stalled tons of times, with jerks sighs.
but the instructor was candid though.
so it was ermm the only good part of all else shitty.
he did mention though when we talked abt auto cars and ppl preferring to take auto cars and all, that he did not say which was more suitable for me and the fact that neither he nor the instructor before encouraged me to take auto which would mean that they felt i could cope with manual.
which would mean i'm stuck with the clutches.
thn i went to get my pdl.
and all was crowded.
i swear the lady thought i was weird when i read out the colors all wrongly 3 times.
until getting it right when i read slowly once.
she cant blame me i'm tiredddddd.
i'm starting to look forward to everything else other thn driving.
i think i am getting lazy.
really lazy.
to the point that i suddenly feel being a passenger and not the driver rawks.
which is totally wrong to think that considering what i am doing and all.
and my next lesson's tmr.
chances are we'll get out of the circuit.
omg. will i kill someone.
or will i stall non-stop again? omg.
lesson today was errm tiring.
and i saw yiyun there.
i was feeling all lost and couldnt find the car.
and the circuit was uber crowded
and i stalled tons of times, with jerks sighs.
but the instructor was candid though.
so it was ermm the only good part of all else shitty.
he did mention though when we talked abt auto cars and ppl preferring to take auto cars and all, that he did not say which was more suitable for me and the fact that neither he nor the instructor before encouraged me to take auto which would mean that they felt i could cope with manual.
which would mean i'm stuck with the clutches.
thn i went to get my pdl.
and all was crowded.
i swear the lady thought i was weird when i read out the colors all wrongly 3 times.
until getting it right when i read slowly once.
she cant blame me i'm tiredddddd.
i'm starting to look forward to everything else other thn driving.
i think i am getting lazy.
really lazy.
to the point that i suddenly feel being a passenger and not the driver rawks.
which is totally wrong to think that considering what i am doing and all.
and my next lesson's tmr.
chances are we'll get out of the circuit.
omg. will i kill someone.
or will i stall non-stop again? omg.
♥ 12:36 AM
Monday, November 17, 2008
i like to move it move it.
watched madagascar 2 with mrtang today.
and his hair looks odd.
haha.
seriously!
it's all hard and sharp..
okay he did say he put gel and all.
and it was kind of long alr.
but still odd. didnt have the courage to touch it though.
hahaha.
anyway, the movie.
okay it was funny at parts.
and the story was cute and all.
but i kind of felt the first movie was better.
that always happens anyway, like the second usually isnt as good as it's predecessor.
but it was cute lar. uber cute.
anyway since mrtang had to go prepare to get back into camp
and had to go meet krys.
so we stoned at her place.
and bobby didnt do the scratching anymore (thankgod).
and we went to kallang leisure park and stoned more.
hahaha.
tmr's my second driving lesson.
i can still count it by the single digits. sighs.
anyway, as usual i am going to pray hard some instructor that is nice and not fierce/grumpy/orsorts.
otherwise it'll be a gruelling 100mins.
watched madagascar 2 with mrtang today.
and his hair looks odd.
haha.
seriously!
it's all hard and sharp..
okay he did say he put gel and all.
and it was kind of long alr.
but still odd. didnt have the courage to touch it though.
hahaha.
anyway, the movie.
okay it was funny at parts.
and the story was cute and all.
but i kind of felt the first movie was better.
that always happens anyway, like the second usually isnt as good as it's predecessor.
but it was cute lar. uber cute.
anyway since mrtang had to go prepare to get back into camp
and had to go meet krys.
so we stoned at her place.
and bobby didnt do the scratching anymore (thankgod).
and we went to kallang leisure park and stoned more.
hahaha.
tmr's my second driving lesson.
i can still count it by the single digits. sighs.
anyway, as usual i am going to pray hard some instructor that is nice and not fierce/grumpy/orsorts.
otherwise it'll be a gruelling 100mins.
Labels: rambles
♥ 11:28 PM
Sunday, November 16, 2008
it's interesting
how the people relations work.
how 'enemies' can end up in the same company.
how childhood friends can meet again in university.
how primary school friends can meet at work. or even turn out to be a neighbour after 8 years.
this is what i suppose is to be explained as such a thing called 'fate'.
but that sounds kind of too tensed.
so err, deja vu maybe?
wait. too psychic.
anyways, i cant help but think about my issues yet again.
and yes i am still typing everything in the bloody darkness.
i swear my eyesight's going to get worse.
but there arent any home appliances shop that's going to open for me at this ungodly hour.
and on this errmm, weekend/
sighs.
how can i or what can i do to stop thinkkiiinnnnggggggg?
how the people relations work.
how 'enemies' can end up in the same company.
how childhood friends can meet again in university.
how primary school friends can meet at work. or even turn out to be a neighbour after 8 years.
this is what i suppose is to be explained as such a thing called 'fate'.
but that sounds kind of too tensed.
so err, deja vu maybe?
wait. too psychic.
anyways, i cant help but think about my issues yet again.
and yes i am still typing everything in the bloody darkness.
i swear my eyesight's going to get worse.
but there arent any home appliances shop that's going to open for me at this ungodly hour.
and on this errmm, weekend/
sighs.
how can i or what can i do to stop thinkkiiinnnnggggggg?
Labels: emotivities, rambles
♥ 11:25 PM
i'm typing in the dark.
the lights of the room that the computer's in died.
so yah, i am typing in the dark,
other than the light from the monitor that is.
friday was sin.
i bought books again.
which sets my number of books untouched at 15.
and many other unfinished cos it kind of bores, etc.
and it's official,
i have to not be able to bite or chew whatsoever for another week since it's happening again that i have to get used to that mutant in my mouth.
sighs/
i've been trying not to think too much, abt stuff. sighs.
christmas is coming.
and i am totally looking forward to it.
it's my favorite FAVORITE holiday.
yayyyyyyyyy.
anyway, it's kind of stupid. i wonder why people start to get together, break up and then blame each other for it. it's kind of stupid when outsiders see it, obviously the fans are the raging ones. all that talk about breaking up and guy hitching another girl is totally stupid, and 27 sec/min phonecalls whatnots. it just seems like crazy publicity stunts for a certain joe and certain taylor.
and yah, in the book i'm reading now it mentions ppl in the 1600s would pick a loved one's lice and put it in a locket and wear it.
that is gross.
the lights of the room that the computer's in died.
so yah, i am typing in the dark,
other than the light from the monitor that is.
friday was sin.
i bought books again.
which sets my number of books untouched at 15.
and many other unfinished cos it kind of bores, etc.
and it's official,
i have to not be able to bite or chew whatsoever for another week since it's happening again that i have to get used to that mutant in my mouth.
sighs/
i've been trying not to think too much, abt stuff. sighs.
christmas is coming.
and i am totally looking forward to it.
it's my favorite FAVORITE holiday.
yayyyyyyyyy.
anyway, it's kind of stupid. i wonder why people start to get together, break up and then blame each other for it. it's kind of stupid when outsiders see it, obviously the fans are the raging ones. all that talk about breaking up and guy hitching another girl is totally stupid, and 27 sec/min phonecalls whatnots. it just seems like crazy publicity stunts for a certain joe and certain taylor.
and yah, in the book i'm reading now it mentions ppl in the 1600s would pick a loved one's lice and put it in a locket and wear it.
that is gross.
Labels: rambles
♥ 8:23 PM
Thursday, November 13, 2008
forget the individualism.
after stoning/hibernating/couchpotatoing for the past 2 days.
i finally got out of the house.
it was my first driving lesson.
okay i know i'm old
still...
anyway, i was late.
which was kind of sucky for a first lesson.
and thn i was kinda lost.
found the number of the car.
thn went looking for the car.
i was uber lucky the teacher was uber nice.
and it went okay
just, engine stalled twice when i was trying to brake.
crappy.
other than that i kind of liked the change gear part.
suddenly felt uber cool.
and the turning part.
hahaha. yah crap.
wanted to get the next few lessons booked but i was afraid i couldnt make it on time for dental.
so...
since my phone died kinda shittily,
i decided to go to krys' house instead
and there i saw mrbobby after a reallly long time.
and he was scratching again omg.
i am so glad i wore pants.
otherwise i'll have paw scratches everywhere and it'll hurt.
and so i went to dental with a pants full of doggy fur stuck to it.
the best part of the day was..
we went to dental on the wrong day.
i swear the exams got me all mixed up.
especially the schedule part.
i forgot all the days.
omg.
and so when krys and i happily walked into dental,
the guy said 'are u guys supposed to come today?'
and i checked my card and realised.
realised.
realised.
it is supposed to be on the 14th.
and he went 'u guys come at the right time on the wrong day, luckily the other person isnt here today'.
yup so my dentist wrestled with my teeth again since the wire was uber hard to pull.
and i swear it bloody hurt. it hurt big time!
cos it was really hard and he spent a full 20 mins cutting and trimming and drilling it until he managed to pull out the wire.
can u imagine how freaking bad that was.
okay. i almost rahhhed.
and now i've got 2 mutants in my mouth.
cos he said that the older one wasnt high enough and the molars werent moving back as well.
so i have another mutanted tooth, which looks like 2 mentos stuck on my teeth.
after that went to nokia shop since krys' phone had odd problems.
and we were like fools though.
first we got a call number to ask abt her problem.
she decided she should save her msges.
the guy said okay and come back later.
thn she decided her msges werent that impt.
so we waited for that guy's counter.
thn the guy suddenly told the infor counter girl that krys' waiting for his counter and asked the info counter girl to tell krys that she could go to any counter.
thn before that i took a call number to ask abt my phone.
so we went to the counters thrice.
and spent a whole 1hr there.
anyway i got my battery.
the phone looks normal now, but stil doesnt work smoothly.
so it's the phone problem.
so now, i need to go collect a parcel since the registered mail came in when i wasnt home.
and i need to book my other lessons before i forget everything i learned and get a scolding from the next might be hostile instructor.
sighs/
after stoning/hibernating/couchpotatoing for the past 2 days.
i finally got out of the house.
it was my first driving lesson.
okay i know i'm old
still...
anyway, i was late.
which was kind of sucky for a first lesson.
and thn i was kinda lost.
found the number of the car.
thn went looking for the car.
i was uber lucky the teacher was uber nice.
and it went okay
just, engine stalled twice when i was trying to brake.
crappy.
other than that i kind of liked the change gear part.
suddenly felt uber cool.
and the turning part.
hahaha. yah crap.
wanted to get the next few lessons booked but i was afraid i couldnt make it on time for dental.
so...
since my phone died kinda shittily,
i decided to go to krys' house instead
and there i saw mrbobby after a reallly long time.
and he was scratching again omg.
i am so glad i wore pants.
otherwise i'll have paw scratches everywhere and it'll hurt.
and so i went to dental with a pants full of doggy fur stuck to it.
the best part of the day was..
we went to dental on the wrong day.
i swear the exams got me all mixed up.
especially the schedule part.
i forgot all the days.
omg.
and so when krys and i happily walked into dental,
the guy said 'are u guys supposed to come today?'
and i checked my card and realised.
realised.
realised.
it is supposed to be on the 14th.
and he went 'u guys come at the right time on the wrong day, luckily the other person isnt here today'.
yup so my dentist wrestled with my teeth again since the wire was uber hard to pull.
and i swear it bloody hurt. it hurt big time!
cos it was really hard and he spent a full 20 mins cutting and trimming and drilling it until he managed to pull out the wire.
can u imagine how freaking bad that was.
okay. i almost rahhhed.
and now i've got 2 mutants in my mouth.
cos he said that the older one wasnt high enough and the molars werent moving back as well.
so i have another mutanted tooth, which looks like 2 mentos stuck on my teeth.
after that went to nokia shop since krys' phone had odd problems.
and we were like fools though.
first we got a call number to ask abt her problem.
she decided she should save her msges.
the guy said okay and come back later.
thn she decided her msges werent that impt.
so we waited for that guy's counter.
thn the guy suddenly told the infor counter girl that krys' waiting for his counter and asked the info counter girl to tell krys that she could go to any counter.
thn before that i took a call number to ask abt my phone.
so we went to the counters thrice.
and spent a whole 1hr there.
anyway i got my battery.
the phone looks normal now, but stil doesnt work smoothly.
so it's the phone problem.
so now, i need to go collect a parcel since the registered mail came in when i wasnt home.
and i need to book my other lessons before i forget everything i learned and get a scolding from the next might be hostile instructor.
sighs/
♥ 8:05 PM
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
when u are cute and shorter and furrier than everyone else, u tend to become the source of attention/
omg bobby floormat. opps.
wondered how much quantity is of importance to the koreans? well, it doesnt only apply to side dishes but also to desserts.
omg bobby floormat. opps.
wondered how much quantity is of importance to the koreans? well, it doesnt only apply to side dishes but also to desserts.
okay i'm not going to admit it's the poor photography skills. it's not!. it's the moving car and far halloween pumpkin on the flyer.
Labels: rambles
♥ 12:29 AM
Exams are over.
it calls for a celebration.
a bloody big one.
exp. since the exams this time is shitttiest compared to poly,
or any other one for that matter.
i got the worst outbreak.
it sucks seriously.
having to rush like crazy till the end and still full of uncertainty.
i wonder if i crapped enough.
or if i can pass my modules.
oh please god, please let me pass them.
i will count my blessings.
BS as mentioned sucked,
OB sucked the worst.
BC was okay but sucky
IA was suckkkkyyyy with the balance sheet thing.
so there goes.
watched quantum of solace.
kind of lost.
cos i didnt watch the previous one or something.
not bad though. kind of draggy and odd dying things.
stuffed myself for dinner with sushi and all.
there goes my dieting plans.
am i going to get fat during the holidays?
it calls for a celebration.
a bloody big one.
exp. since the exams this time is shitttiest compared to poly,
or any other one for that matter.
i got the worst outbreak.
it sucks seriously.
having to rush like crazy till the end and still full of uncertainty.
i wonder if i crapped enough.
or if i can pass my modules.
oh please god, please let me pass them.
i will count my blessings.
BS as mentioned sucked,
OB sucked the worst.
BC was okay but sucky
IA was suckkkkyyyy with the balance sheet thing.
so there goes.
watched quantum of solace.
kind of lost.
cos i didnt watch the previous one or something.
not bad though. kind of draggy and odd dying things.
stuffed myself for dinner with sushi and all.
there goes my dieting plans.
am i going to get fat during the holidays?
♥ 12:07 AM
omg mstan understands! it's uber scary.
♥ 12:05 AM
Thursday, November 06, 2008
stagnanted.
watched tropic thunder with mrsu the other day.
turned out to be super crappily lame.
there's some reason to it i guess.
havent been feeling like eating these days.
exams are draining.
i miss poly so much esp after that poly talk in sch on tues.
with the other poly grads in og.
i so miss the days that i didnt have to feel like dying everytime i left the room.
i miss the days that things were just that simple
i miss the days when we didnt care much
now.
okay fine. i'm convinced i have issues.
i have serious issues.
this sucks big time.
i cant feel like i understand why i am doing all that
i cant feel like i understand why i am going through all this.
i cant feel like there is at least some meaning. some meaning to all those emotions and all.
and why the hell it has to be that way or act that way.
it's not sensible for me. no. i am the non-sensible one.
i need to be more mature.
shit. if i could i would've privated this entry,.
watched tropic thunder with mrsu the other day.
turned out to be super crappily lame.
there's some reason to it i guess.
havent been feeling like eating these days.
exams are draining.
i miss poly so much esp after that poly talk in sch on tues.
with the other poly grads in og.
i so miss the days that i didnt have to feel like dying everytime i left the room.
i miss the days that things were just that simple
i miss the days when we didnt care much
now.
okay fine. i'm convinced i have issues.
i have serious issues.
this sucks big time.
i cant feel like i understand why i am doing all that
i cant feel like i understand why i am going through all this.
i cant feel like there is at least some meaning. some meaning to all those emotions and all.
and why the hell it has to be that way or act that way.
it's not sensible for me. no. i am the non-sensible one.
i need to be more mature.
shit. if i could i would've privated this entry,.
Labels: emotivities, events, rambles
♥ 7:22 PM
there are many things going through my head now.
why..
i've got issues. i guess.
if so. serious ones.
i need strength.
why..
i've got issues. i guess.
if so. serious ones.
i need strength.
♥ 7:16 PM
i am hopeless
what the hell is wrong with me.
this sucks.
what the hell is wrong with me.
this sucks.
♥ 6:51 PM
Monday, November 03, 2008
i need to be more mature.
♥ 7:09 PM