am i merry? are u merry?it feels like mockery seeing the webbies getting all dressed up for christmas.the shops having all those crazy sales, shop people with santa hats.and then all of a sudden, people dont seem to care about the recession or anything for that matter.it's supposed to be joyous, and because of that my emo-ing is starting to feel like it's straining my mental health.it seems like many problems start popping upi dont know if they have always been there and i never ever realised their existanceor yes, it is sudden bolts of deception.so while getting squished and having this shitty bloody wooon-der-naer(note: pronounciation, i dont want to be racist) fucking asshole keep coming close to my back toooo cloose shittttily when squishing into the train, i suddenly realised how sucky i felt. and not just with the bloody idiot doing the bloody sick and sucky stuffbut with a lot of the stuff that's been happening in my lifei havent been stoning this much in a really long time.no, actually this is the first i stone so much. or think this much.what is wrong with me?is it because i've aged?my hormones?my thoughts have driven the madness part of me?tmr is x'mas eve.and i'm sad to say that i am not merry.have i totally lost the x'mas vibe? i guess so.Labels: emotivities, rambles
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