gritty. figetty. impatience.these days. i do not know if it is the stress from the exams or the craps i get..i dont like myself for the things i do.i dont know..i mean the lack of confidence, lack of mental consideration.those stuff i know ive had them since a long time ago.(maybe when the bagay thing happened)but yes,now i feel like my decisions and the things i say or do. is just not right.is just unfair.is seriously crap.i dont like the me now.i dont now but all i feel is sorry.whats wrong with me.am i having this mental breakdown from all the things happening ard.oh god.i shud learn from pn and cry to let it all out.or maybe i should just go to ecp and scream my lungs out.sighs.i need counselling.and no it aint the traits for some horoscope.Labels: emotivities, rambles
♥ 9:57 AM
twelve by twelve on the f21 site is reminding me of the times that i had ambitions.twelve by twelve: http://www.forever21.com/promotion/uncommoncouture/main.aspa fashion designer.it was madness.like how we would think about what to do.like its always in compositions.the very first topic would be 'YOUR AMBITION'i remember i could write long stories.think about what i want to do.obviously, the usual lawyers, doctors came into the picture.soon, as i grew older, there's being an actress from watching too much ch8 dramas (when they were still nice).oo and mstan thought so too, esp. since acting would mean u didnt have to think of a job. u'll be tons.anyway, fantasies.so soon when i started loving sketching it become visual comm and fashion design.but now.i do not know if its insecurities.i kind of think,now i do not have goals.i dont know what i want to do.seriously.where will i be after my degree.what will i be doing.suddenly it occurred to me.what happened to the ambitions.what happened to all the dreams and such.what happened to all the fantasies.oh yeah. they are fantasies.im not being pessimistic or anything.its just that. im kind of lost.lost my direction. but aimless? no.i need assurance. lord.Labels: emotivities, rambles
♥ 2:00 AM
