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Saturday, May 30, 2009
omg i think im going through one of those times where im 'drunky' without using alcohol.
okay im super tired.
okay im super tired.
♥ 2:21 PM
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Sunday, May 24, 2009
180509-240509
180509
dental. i havent seen Dr Loh in the longest time.
i checked the card its been 2 months.
the first time i ever missed an appointment.
anyway. the big news is i have my first wisdom tooth popping out.
the bad news is i should remove it and it'll take 5 days to heal and stitching&swelling is added in the package.
i think i emo-ed and decided to hop on 36 to changi airport.
and i got popeyes for lunch.
yes. i went to the airport just to get takeaway.
190509
cycling.
this time no one was late thanks to fahms forfeit plans.
and the new route we took turn out to go wrong and we were practically cycling on the expressway.
managed to cycle back whatsoever.
went to ehub for dinner.
200509
kbox.
tell me abt awkward.
its more of the lightbulb part actually.
but it turned out fine.
but that doesnt include the part tht there was the pathetic voice of mine, esp. when i heard the pros.
210509
sophia.
we finally met.
after the longest time.
omg.
and yes i am glad.
i am so going to miss her when she goes to tasmania.
so miss her.
i want her to come back!!!
anyway it was sakae sushi @ whitesands before night at the museum 2 @ ehub.
and NATM 2 is super funny.
i love the angels, cupids actually.
220509
the day the emoness started. cos its the 2nd day of waiting.
met val and ym to find job.
went to loads of places. and ended up in pasir ris.
and yes. i was thinking the whole time abt the phone.
THE FREAKING PHONE. tell me why am i going through the torment.
i put this upon myself.
230509
the day the torment was supposedly drowned.
sentosa was fun.
the other parts were embarassing.
boat quay was much needed.
drinking was the goal. not to get drunk though.
i tried to stop my own torment by intiating and stopping the wait. it didnt seem to work.
i seriously doubt i was myself tht night.
i knew if i contd drinking another 2 glasses, the toilet at the pub will reek of puke.
gauging from the time i went with mstan.
but yes. i managed to pass through the night. but i doubt i was normal.
i am positive my reactions were abnormal.
not me.
so not me.
and shit did i just embarass myself?
the girls i dont mind. but...
anyway. i reached home at 4plus.
mom and dad were asleep.
the creepy part was that there was a wake at my block and another at the next block.
so going back at 4 plus was. er. odd.
but its like near sunrise right.
so there shouldnt be anything odd. weird. etc.
240509
the day torment started again. but not only that problem.
obviously i overjudged myself. i couldnt wake for church.
sighs.
i woke at 12.
met rakinah at 1. the cabbie was trying to play tricks with me bringing me to the place which was jammed.
and the best part was that it was jammed at freaking bedok.
freaking outside bedok interchange.
like how will there be a jam there.
like how will there be cars at all. and jammed?!
so all in all my cab bill was like 18 bucks.
when it usually is 12.
i am broke.
angels and demons was as intriguing as da vinci code.
but seriously i missed da vinci code more.
maybe its cos i actually read the book.
but i didnt for angels and demons.
the killing parts were..... 'errrrr'
the story was kinda cool.
saw many old cathay ppl.
oyo! and am touched he still recognised me. zachary too.
but many others have changed, no longer the same ppl as before.
caught up with rakinah till 7.
found out a lot of scoops and stuff.
so now.
im trying to get over things which prove to be harder thn i thought.
no
i should know i always overestimated myself at such stuff.
i never had the confidence to be able to do such things.
mr torment. from now on u shall be called.
i dont know.
i doubt i should contd holding the phone and wait.
but i dont know.
whats wrong with me.
i dont even know why.
help me. give me guidance.
180509
dental. i havent seen Dr Loh in the longest time.
i checked the card its been 2 months.
the first time i ever missed an appointment.
anyway. the big news is i have my first wisdom tooth popping out.
the bad news is i should remove it and it'll take 5 days to heal and stitching&swelling is added in the package.
i think i emo-ed and decided to hop on 36 to changi airport.
and i got popeyes for lunch.
yes. i went to the airport just to get takeaway.
190509
cycling.
this time no one was late thanks to fahms forfeit plans.
and the new route we took turn out to go wrong and we were practically cycling on the expressway.
managed to cycle back whatsoever.
went to ehub for dinner.
200509
kbox.
tell me abt awkward.
its more of the lightbulb part actually.
but it turned out fine.
but that doesnt include the part tht there was the pathetic voice of mine, esp. when i heard the pros.
210509
sophia.
we finally met.
after the longest time.
omg.
and yes i am glad.
i am so going to miss her when she goes to tasmania.
so miss her.
i want her to come back!!!
anyway it was sakae sushi @ whitesands before night at the museum 2 @ ehub.
and NATM 2 is super funny.
i love the angels, cupids actually.
220509
the day the emoness started. cos its the 2nd day of waiting.
met val and ym to find job.
went to loads of places. and ended up in pasir ris.
and yes. i was thinking the whole time abt the phone.
THE FREAKING PHONE. tell me why am i going through the torment.
i put this upon myself.
230509
the day the torment was supposedly drowned.
sentosa was fun.
the other parts were embarassing.
boat quay was much needed.
drinking was the goal. not to get drunk though.
i tried to stop my own torment by intiating and stopping the wait. it didnt seem to work.
i seriously doubt i was myself tht night.
i knew if i contd drinking another 2 glasses, the toilet at the pub will reek of puke.
gauging from the time i went with mstan.
but yes. i managed to pass through the night. but i doubt i was normal.
i am positive my reactions were abnormal.
not me.
so not me.
and shit did i just embarass myself?
the girls i dont mind. but...
anyway. i reached home at 4plus.
mom and dad were asleep.
the creepy part was that there was a wake at my block and another at the next block.
so going back at 4 plus was. er. odd.
but its like near sunrise right.
so there shouldnt be anything odd. weird. etc.
240509
the day torment started again. but not only that problem.
obviously i overjudged myself. i couldnt wake for church.
sighs.
i woke at 12.
met rakinah at 1. the cabbie was trying to play tricks with me bringing me to the place which was jammed.
and the best part was that it was jammed at freaking bedok.
freaking outside bedok interchange.
like how will there be a jam there.
like how will there be cars at all. and jammed?!
so all in all my cab bill was like 18 bucks.
when it usually is 12.
i am broke.
angels and demons was as intriguing as da vinci code.
but seriously i missed da vinci code more.
maybe its cos i actually read the book.
but i didnt for angels and demons.
the killing parts were..... 'errrrr'
the story was kinda cool.
saw many old cathay ppl.
oyo! and am touched he still recognised me. zachary too.
but many others have changed, no longer the same ppl as before.
caught up with rakinah till 7.
found out a lot of scoops and stuff.
so now.
im trying to get over things which prove to be harder thn i thought.
no
i should know i always overestimated myself at such stuff.
i never had the confidence to be able to do such things.
mr torment. from now on u shall be called.
i dont know.
i doubt i should contd holding the phone and wait.
but i dont know.
whats wrong with me.
i dont even know why.
help me. give me guidance.
Labels: emotivities, events, rambles
♥ 10:20 PM
half the night i waste in sighs. half in dreams i sorrow.
i keep thinking the negative
i swear my imagination is running wild
i think of all the possibilities.
i make myself feel shitty.
i make myself think more and get more upset.
but who knows it might just be the truth.
its hard.
i never had to go through this.
whats worse is i have to get over with the person.
i dont know what in hell is wrong with me.
yeah great. so im going to be this crazy nut that have to go through all that fuckshit and find a way to settle it.
omg.
omg.
omg.
oh great. im so fucked up.
i keep thinking the negative
i swear my imagination is running wild
i think of all the possibilities.
i make myself feel shitty.
i make myself think more and get more upset.
but who knows it might just be the truth.
its hard.
i never had to go through this.
whats worse is i have to get over with the person.
i dont know what in hell is wrong with me.
yeah great. so im going to be this crazy nut that have to go through all that fuckshit and find a way to settle it.
omg.
omg.
omg.
oh great. im so fucked up.
♥ 9:32 PM
Monday, May 11, 2009
pigs and nuts
ney
the dreaded exams are finally over.
i can't express how gratifying it is to walk out of the god foresaken exam hall.
the sad part is knowing that i have absolutely no confidence for a SINGLE PAPER.
shyt.
i dont know but this time after econs paper i didnt feel the gush of adrenaline i usually would.
okay maybe its the continuous 4 hrs of sleep thing sitting into my brain or draining my energy.
but idk. i know i've said this like the trillioned time.
i dont want to flunk and not see them ever again.
i practically snoozed the whole day through on sat.
today was mother's day so we brought the moms out for dinner and went to marina barrage.
and camwhored.
yep. the moms too.
and marina barrage was super super crowded.
wanted to go eat tauhuey since it was nearby.
but noone had the energy anymore.
and yes. im starting to feel like the snoozing effect is going to knock me out right now.
sighs.
things have been happening these days.
too much.
to all who has been affected, im sorry about the loss.
i extend my condolences.
i am saddened to keep hearing such news too frequently now.
ney
the dreaded exams are finally over.
i can't express how gratifying it is to walk out of the god foresaken exam hall.
the sad part is knowing that i have absolutely no confidence for a SINGLE PAPER.
shyt.
i dont know but this time after econs paper i didnt feel the gush of adrenaline i usually would.
okay maybe its the continuous 4 hrs of sleep thing sitting into my brain or draining my energy.
but idk. i know i've said this like the trillioned time.
i dont want to flunk and not see them ever again.
i practically snoozed the whole day through on sat.
today was mother's day so we brought the moms out for dinner and went to marina barrage.
and camwhored.
yep. the moms too.
and marina barrage was super super crowded.
wanted to go eat tauhuey since it was nearby.
but noone had the energy anymore.
and yes. im starting to feel like the snoozing effect is going to knock me out right now.
sighs.
things have been happening these days.
too much.
to all who has been affected, im sorry about the loss.
i extend my condolences.
i am saddened to keep hearing such news too frequently now.
♥ 1:30 AM