Cest moi.

Friday, July 31, 2009

the stress levels. or just me.

im thinking the latter.

damn.

♥ 11:19 PM

Thursday, July 30, 2009

I've been feeling insecure these days. I don't know what to expect, I don't know what to think and I don't know what to believe.

♥ 11:50 AM

I got home late at night one of the days this week and mommy was at the door. Just as I thought she was going to start saying something about my often late stayouts, instead it got me and dad laughing.

'Aunty say just called to say that popo came in contact with a h1n1 case. So when she brings her book here tomorrow remember to use a glove to take the book and put it into a plastic bag and put it under the table.'

Omg what. Just as I was thinking how my granny got self-quarantined, I was appalled by how my mom actually felt so panicky about germs, bacteria and such.

Welcome back to paranoia from SARS.

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♥ 11:38 AM

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

im feeling insecure,

all over again.
thanks ck :D

the playground. reminds me of the good old times. :D

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♥ 11:13 PM

the point is.

im alr blasting my itunes.
and i thought it'd stopped and all.
but the drilling's back.
OMG.
OH GREAT.

:(

♥ 10:06 AM

all that talk about losing the pounds.

came to a naught.

autocar is freaking easy and fun and everything nice.
and im now thinking why did i get manual!.
sigh.
its like im torturing myself looking back at the times when i had to go through the stalling, getting used to the clutch.

lunch was at nus.

school was price and markets.
instead, played bingo. im so dead.

met wanlin at parkway.
and headed to vivo.
public enemies was selling fast.
sigh. johnny depp...
so we feasted, practically.
carl's jr: 2western bacon cheeseburgers + Beef chili cheese fries + Large iced tea.
FAT.
anyway she managed to get stuffies.
and im still feeling broke.
i need to get lots of stuff. no not impulses. just that theyre kind of dying.

today's price and markets again.
i HOPE i can start concentrating.

i need to book 2 more lessons for driving.
im back to square one.
sigh.
why's the P&M test on the driving day?

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♥ 8:44 AM

Somehow or another i'll hear 'battlefield'.

just like how its playing on mtv now.
just like how it was playing yesterday at f21.
just like how it was playing yesterday on mtv too.
just like how it was playing the day before on mtv toooo.
just like how it was playing on radio.
just like how it was played on my itunes when i shuffled (and i have 650+ songs?!)

oh great.
and i still dont get what the lyrics seriously mean.
i wasnt that good at lit myself.

:(

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♥ 8:41 AM

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

its no. 601st!

sunday was odd.
anyway, i went for driving and sucked at parking.
i swear my judgement just. SUCKS.
thn met up with xinhui at tampines.
i havent seen her since... pri school. OMG.
but it was good.
and yeah i got that dress.

today was ion with aldwin.
we walked wisma, taka, centerpoint, orchard central.
tiring.
but ion's got a humongous prints and sephora.
and it was shu umera's opening.
and it was super crowded for a monday.
and great. we got stuck in the freaking lift!.
and yeah the 2 of us and the concierge and one guy were like looking at each other when the lift door was closed and refused to move.
yeah we freaked.
and the concierge girl just pressed the bell.
and we frantically tried to press the 'open' button.
and suddenly. the doors opened.
and when we tried to close the doors and hoped the lift would move.
well.
it didnt again
so when the doors opened again we left it and hopped onto another.
which was stupid and crappy.

met wanlin at airport.
was impromptu.
hope i wasnt much of a nuisance or anything.
anyway had dinner with her parents cos they were flying off.
thn we stoned at starbucks till 10.30pm.
talked and camwhored.
thn she gave me a lift back.
sweet.
and shes not bad a driver.

tmr's autocar session.
im excited. cos its autocar.
for once my left feet isnt going to hurt or anything. muahahaha.

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♥ 12:24 AM

Sunday, July 26, 2009

it'll all get better in time.

i blogged this morning abt school.
and i meant it when im so screwed.
i should just start listening. itouch is tempting. and not helping whatsoever to concentrating.

lunch at bukit timah was great.
i felt bad abt getting fahms to send us all the way.

we rotted at j.co while pengli tried to help update my itouch.
it was crap. cos since my itouch was 1.1.5 (!!), we tried updating it to 2.
there were errors and all. and when we were thinking that it wasnt going to work but should just give it a try to update it to 3, it actually worked.
crap.
anyway, he had free tix so we went to watch the hangover.
it was lameshit. seriously.
hahahahaha.
it was crappy. in a good way. LOL

dinner. and a long talk.
ive been emo these days.
its been obvious.
shyt.
i just have to get over things.
things that are hard to ignore.
sighs.

i just do hope that it'll get better in time.

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♥ 1:13 AM

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Hollandv, cold rock, far east, ps, rochor tau huay.

Yesterday was happy.
I managed to get honeycomb icecream and tau huay. And lots of other stuff.
Which means I wouldve busted the calories and busted the wallet.
Oh wells I need the therapy. The UNO wasn't enough to get me off things.

Fahms has got no bottom lashes.

And yeah. I had to get more falsies since the ones I have are dying madness.

I miss mstan.

Im blogging in class again. This time he's talking about shares. Dad'll be interested.
I'm so screwed I should start listening and pay attention. No thanks to the fails I'm going to get at the end of the sem.

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♥ 10:50 AM

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Battlefield - Jordin Sparks.

Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute, it's love
And, suddenly, it's like a battlefield

One word turns into war
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down
My world's nothing when you're gone
I'm out here without a shield - can't go back, now

Both hands tied behind my back for nothing, oh, no
These times when we climb so fast to fall, again
Why we gotta fall for it, now...

I never meant to start a war
You know, I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like

Can't swallow our pride
Neither of us wanna raise that flag, mmm
If we can't surrender
Then, we're both gonna what we have, oh, no

Both hands tied behind my back for nothing (nothing), oh, no
These times when we climb so fast to fall, again
I don't wanna fall for it, now...

I never meant to start a war
You know, I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Better go and get your armor (get your armor), get your armor (get your armor)
I guess you better go and get your armor (get your armor), get your armor (get your armor)
I guess you better go and get your

We could pretend that we are friends, tonight (oh)
And, in the morning, we wake up, and we'd be alright
'Cause, baby, we don't have to fight
And I don't want this love to feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
I guess you better go and get your armor...

I never meant to start a war
You know, I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
I guess you better go and get your armor (get your armor), get your armor (get your armor)
I guess you better go and get your armor (get your armor), get your armor (get your armor)
Why does love always feel like (oh, oh)
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield

I never meant to start a war
Don't even know what we're fighting for
I never meant to start a war
Don't even know what we're fighting for...

http://artists.letssingit.com/jordin-sparks-lyrics-battlefield-2rrz7hv

i've been hearing this song for at least 7 times unwittingly. itunes shuffle, radio, whateffs. shit is it trying to hint something?

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♥ 10:12 PM

69.

was the number of bus stops i took with val on the freaking buses.
we took 74 from sch and wanted to get to amk. but we missed it and landed up at hougang.
and then took 27 from hougang to tampines.
OMFG.

seriously.
it was a madness joyride.

boy thunder and his correspondence about the solar eclipse made my day.
'i dont see anything.
i dont see the sun.
i dont see the moon.
i dont see the stars.
its all pitch black'
LOLLLL.

dinner was kimgary.
and was practically bloated.
:D

tmr's driving again.
sigh,

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♥ 12:11 AM

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

price and markets is killing me.

Could the continuous falling on my knees on the day before driving be a sign that driving lessons are not for me?
Anyway, this is the second time it's happened. And boy it hurts.

I was getting all cranky this morning and went nuts and jogged around my estate (well, part of it) at 11am.
I can't help but feel conscious about weight issues. I dont want to gain the pounds especially with all that buffet and good food. I'm going to be damned when I start turning into this fatso (okay not like I'm not one already). 200 pounds! :(

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♥ 3:21 PM

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

the psychotic driller was at work again.

dental was nuts. next extraction: 29aug.
anyway. i cant really open my mouth and all. and it kind of hurts when i open it a little bigger.
so yeah.

mind's was funny.
seriously.

shisha was the 3rd in a month.
ive got to stop going.
the 1st time i went i could hardly get any smoke out.
2nd felt. better.
this time i think i was holding it for too long. i was getting all groggy with the rest.
to think we were trying our very best to play daidee.
anyway there was great music.
great company.
and a classic jackie chan movie.
:D

val&shimin are working today.
cel idk if shes teaching tuition.
wanlin can't make it for our dinner date. cos of OT.
so. yep. i figured i should stay home today.
i need all the rest i can get.
and hopefully i should start reading up hmt. i wouldnt have time in aug at all.
i need to settle my cupboard by today or dad will never be able to get his clothes. since my clothes are all packed in front of his. haha.
anyway. today i went to cdc to try my luck to book slots.
i need my last 2 slots. desperately.
so i went down. got a sunday afternoon one.
the other ive gotta stone at the cdc webby to try to book.
thn i shud be settled till my tp on the 28th next month.
and it sucks when sch clashes with the driving.

miss mstan!

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♥ 5:44 PM

Monday, July 20, 2009

sent mstan off last night.
caught up with yy.
got all mushy with the sweetness of wanlin's r/s. really sweet am envious :X
saw huge feelers at the popeye's at t3 after seeing 4 beetle-like creatures.
okay shyt it was damn gross. still getting creeps.
missed and finally got coffee bean. remembers the last time drinking it was when studying for last sem's exams.
saw lots of kids running about, falling down, screaming, crying: resembles aunty say's childcare.
was cheated to a 'joyride' on aldwin's dad's car. felt like barfing.

oh great. the upstairs is drilling again.
i seriously wonder how much is there to drill.
and how long does he need to drill to get that freaking hole.
gawd.
if its true that he wants that extra space in his house and he's drilling down the walls. be damned.
but yes. its apparently like some ritual to drill in the morning.
and to think i thought the drilling has stopped since it did for my holidays.
and yes, today proved me wrong.

OH DAMN its like there's 2 drillls.

im getting frustrated.

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♥ 10:32 AM

Sunday, July 19, 2009

omg my 2004 posts are super hyper, happy, enthusiastic, nuts, adrenaline-filled.
is that seriously me?

smth mustve happened along the way. im guessing poly.

and yeah tons of 'to kor'. i think we did talk a lot last time. haha.

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♥ 1:19 PM

ive been reading my old posts.

i realised i have been blogging under this corny blog addy for almost 5 years.
and i realised i seriously hated business stats at a point of time.
it couldve been cos its the paper on my birthday last year.
couldve been cos i wasnt exactly fond of the subject nor the teacher for that matter.
anyways, since business finance has this uncanny resemblance with business stats.
and nows the end of the year sem again,
whats the guessing that business finance might fall on my birthday (!)
and the month before mugging will be filled with blog posts about how much i dread having to mug it.

omg. no it cant happen. i need good grades for this sem. i managed to settle the credits last sem and i need to do tht too.

but hey. i dont regret my major since my minor's set to be marketing. (loves).

mstan's flying back today.
i think the emo-ness is bound to set in soon.
i should seriously get skype or something. there'll be maybe to skype with in aussie. and definitely included soph. (miss her toooooo. got her call yesterday but my damned phone has bad reception at home)

im supposed to look through the assignment for hmt.
since my aug is going to be a frenzy. nuts.

OH YAH and i realised.
i miss bobby tsai toooo.
after seeing all the pictures.
hes definitely the cutest guy on the planet.
he rules hands down.

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♥ 12:59 PM

the past week.

i realised i gorged myself silly for 2 days straight.

cos monday was the dim sum buffet thing. after which we went lan. and then the usual rochor tau huey.

tuesday was carousol with mstan and fahms. and i got my 122.20 for a month's supply lenses. (gawd). turns out my degree's dropped after the eyecheck. is that a good thing?

wednesday i dont remember what i did other than school.

thursday was harry potter loves. met mstan and janice for lunchies at ikea @ Queensway before watching the half-blood prince with mstan. met the classmates at haji lane. had soup spoon. fahms was at zam zam. was home late.

friday was helping mstan pack her stuffies. didnt help much though. but was seriously amazed by her eloquence. i knew she could write a long time ago and really well at that, but still it never fails to amaze me. :D

saturday was sch (!) and was supposed to attend my mom cellmate's wedding. but class ended late and the lecturer refused to let us go till 15 mins after class time. and since class time stated 8.30am - 11.30am and the wedding was supposed to start at 11.30am. i soon realised that i was never going to be able to make it there since its at kembangan and sch's in clementi. so instead, i went lunch with the rest. and snoozed the whole afternoon till night. and sighs, mom's project's a lot of work for a 1 page thing. tons of kiddy stuff and its driving me nuts.

the past week i cant help but feel lethargic the whole time. i was practically a walking zombie going to class, let alone get cheerful and all.
mstan's sick. i hope it goes well.
i cant help but notice the increase in the number of botaks on friend's list. :DD
gotta start mugging and projects.
driving, im seriously crossing my fingers for this one. i so hope and pray that i wont flunk my TP. :X

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♥ 9:52 AM

THE WEATHER IS KILLING ME

♥ 1:32 AM

how many times do u see the opportunity slip past you?

♥ 1:10 AM

Saturday, July 18, 2009

im in school and yes I'm rotting.
I've been having odd dreams these days are they trying to hint something?
Maybe I should just write it somewhere or something since its like some epic movie, shakespearean play, korean drama. Oh gawd.
Been really bummed. Which sucks.

Oh great lecturer just said he's not going to end class anytime soon and I'm going to be freaking late for the wedding!!!!!!!
He's still at yield to maturity. :(

♥ 11:19 AM

im empty.

i lost all of my creative juices getting sad over nothing.
just slap me.

time flies and yes. mstan's going back to aussie.
and i dread it.
1. she has to leave again. and i feel the whole missing thing all over again.
2. she's leaving at a time like this.

Harry potter and the half blood prince feels kind of overrated. no doubt the whole movie, like the others in the franchise, is filled with the suspense but i didnt think this was as good as the rest. maybe its the inner fight thing. maybe its cos of dumbledore's death that was very much untimely.

ive been feeling really lethargic. and i am quiet these days.
ive kind of realised i listen more.
i listen to what ppl have to say abt things in life.
how ppl communicate.
okay i dont deny im at the emo-ing stage again. and somehow getting into this is inevitable.
but. yeah. i dont want to keep at the emo stage. i mean listening is good but emo-ing just isnt.

sch's been tiring. (maybe tht explains part of the emos)
i cant seem to concentrate enough on lectures.
fahms is right the class seems boring and all now. esp. when many ppl and eyecandies arent in class.
i need to feel that i am part of the society.
i need solace.
dear lord god, i seek the light.

am i like a zombie now? no?

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♥ 12:37 AM

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

school just started.
its been emo-ish enough.
i realised im so screwed cos i need to book at least 1 more lesson to cover my module 3.
please god im praying that i'll have at least one slot before 28 aug.

im broke.
i need cash.
the 200 from gst. is gone alr.

sad. i look like a dork.

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♥ 1:02 PM

how much u are willing is give is equivalent to how much u care for that person.

what a catch, donnie.

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♥ 1:01 PM

Friday, July 03, 2009

the good old days? :D

since tmr is the reminscing day at sentosa. (haha), i dug the cupboard with all the old pics.
and i realised.
I WAS A CUTE KID.
hahahahahaha.
smth mustve gone wrong when i was growing up cos apparently.
the cuteness is gone.
sighs.
and dad was handsome and muscular.
mom;s always eluding tht motherly thing.
so cool.
yeah.
and i realised i was quite pampered. everyones hugging me, carrying me, taking photos with me.
im always made to be clad with bracelets, heels, hairbands, shades. (yes shades! OMG).
thts the perks of being the oldest grandchild for my mom;s side.
but anyways.
it was seriously fun. its like how everyone looked like when they were young. including the grownups.

met up with fahms for popeyes today.
which was when i realised i havent paid sch fees. shit nuts.
and tmr im going to have to go to clementi to pay.

met up with wanlin. (omg. i found her pic tooooo. my birthday and the aussie sch exchange at p5 i think)
haha. we splurged all right.
she did most of it though.
she and E's sweet lar.
im envious :X

haha okay. wrong direction.

anyway. we were late for the movie. and nuts we decided to watch ice age 3 in the end.
hahaha.
and 3d!
and cute.
hahaha.
i kinda miss working at cathay.
all the good old memories.
but sch;s going to suck next sem and ive got lots of stuff to clear.

but im going broke. i need the cash for the trip at the end of the yr,
sighs.

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♥ 2:12 AM

Thursday, July 02, 2009

u know tht im getting emo and need the extra assurance when i start typing odd stuff on my blog.

omg. i shouldve seen it coming.
i shouldve felt it a long time ago.
i shouldve known thts how its going to end.
i shouldve understood what greg behrendt and liz tuccillo wrote in the book.

:(

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♥ 12:29 PM