Cest moi.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

ive come to realise.

i get tongue tied when it comes to talking to the people i ____.

sigh.

♥ 3:48 AM

Saturday, August 29, 2009

im on tumblr, twitter, blogger and livejournal.

:X

♥ 10:35 AM

im convinced its over.

its the getting over part thats killing me.

it was this whole chunk of things that got me nuts. including the ER project. and that issue that i loathe so much. since i have to freaking face the same thing the 2nd time in 6months.

i know i have to get myself together. but it still feels like a part of me is gone. and im choosing negativity for a change. and with that, i realised i never opened myself up to people this much until this time.

so the past week, havent been eating much.
partly the tooth, partly the busi-ness, partly the issue.
and its tearing me apart. just like the song.

and my energy? i doubt its back. just yet.

so maybe i was hanging on to the busi-ness to make my thoughts not run wild.
which means im back to square one or even worse.
dont get me wrong tho. im not going to be the weichoo act.

watched final destination 4 with val and the rest.
was gross.
and was in 3d.
but it wasnt as good as the rest.
sigh.

and my phone isnt done repairing! samsung hasnt msged me. its been a week. and im getting skeptical about why my phone isnt done since its just system update. the girl told me that i could collect it the next day i sent for repair but its been a week!. :(

anyway, baybeats so long. tho i might be catching anberlin's. they are love.

Labels: emotivities, events, rambles

♥ 10:18 AM

Friday, August 28, 2009

22 july - 22 august.
mom stared at me real hard. i chose to ignore. LOL.

anyway, it counted a total of 5 overseas and 1862 local.

:D

♥ 1:03 PM

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

i got my energy back. for now.

♥ 9:27 PM

half the night i waste in sighs.
in a wakeful daze i sorrow.

maybe its best u nvr know.
maybe its best i nvr tried to understand what is wrong.
maybe its best i left it uncertain.
maybe all of it is just hard for me to take.

and now, all i can do is go through the sadness.
leave everything behind me and walk the roads alone.
maybe its the best way to heal the wounds.
maybe its just how it was meant to be.
maybe its the best way out.
maybe u didnt care in the first place.
maybe i lost my strength when it came to this.
maybe i was stupid for not thinking it the way i should.

and maybe this is the end of things.

♥ 5:31 PM

finally got my lappy cover.

finally ate chilli cheese fries frm superdog. carl's jr's still rock tho.

finally started to type on er. please give me the adrenaline to last till thurs.
no. no. till after my TP i mean.

oh damn, im back to the old status on fb again. why oh why............

shall spin itunes again.

Labels: rambles

♥ 8:27 AM

Monday, August 24, 2009

It's like
One step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do, you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind

It's like
Trying to turn around on a one-way street
I can't give you what you want and it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be.

Labels: lyrics

♥ 11:43 PM

my phone died.

okay maybe it wasnt so bad and im exaggerating a little.
it hanged.
BUT IT HANGED BIG TIME.
so i saw msges coming in and couldnt reply.
sry.
IT WAS FRUSTRATING!!!!
:(
and all the msges, some pics and others are gone. sigh.

using dad's phone for now. till then. no camwhoring for me. LOL.
but using dad's phone made me realise how much i missed using nokia. haha.

Labels: rambles

♥ 11:40 PM

withdrawal symptoms.

i woke up this morning fretting about my fringe.
and boy did i do something nutty.
i cut my fringe. myself.
so far it looks normal. to me.
lol. i think i should start meeting people to get the reassurance. bah.

anyway. er's starting to look less bleak. i kind of get what theyre trying to say.
but a 2000 word essay which is 40% of my semester's coursework. isnt quite helpful.
i just know that at the end of the week my brain will be clogged with japan and sg industrial relations.
unions and whatnots.

i have to stop thinking it. and i cant help it. but its getting along quite okay. at least i dont do stupid things all over again. but seriously, booze and shisha? that i still welcome. :D

Labels: rambles

♥ 10:11 AM

I swear that you dont have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow, to wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your arms
and spend every moment I have with you
stay up all night with the stars
confess all the faith that I had in you
I had in you

Too late, im sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words, so sing along for me baby
For heavens sake I know you're sorry
but you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know im dying, with my heart beside me
in shattered pieces that may never be replaced
and if I died right now, you'd never be the same

I thought with a month of apart, together would find us an opening
and moonlight would provide the spark
and that i would stumble across the key, or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see us not you and me
and you'd help me out of the dark
and id give my heart as an offering

Too late, im sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words, so sing along for me baby
For heavens sake I know you're sorry
but you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know im dying, with my heart beside me
in shattered pieces that may never be replaced
and if I died right now, you'd never be the same

and I will always remember you as you are right now to me
and I will always remember you now
remember you now

So sleep alone tonight
with no one here just by your side
sleep alone tonight
how does he feel how does he kiss
how does he taste while hes on your lips
I cant forget you
I know you want me to want you
i want to
But i cant forget you
so when this is over dont blow your composure baby

I cant forget you
I know you want me to want you
I want to...

Three cheers for five years - mayday parade.

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♥ 1:33 AM

i havent laughed that much in the longest time.

thanks. :)

ps. omg my blogger is back to normal.

went to nlb in the afternoon to get books for ER assignment.
turns out none of them were of much use. so e-journals here i come.
i have 4 days left to finish it all up. and yeah i am panicking.
bah. some way to get my senses back for TP.
i seriously wonder how i am going to get through everything this week. this week IS a mad race.

so while doing the assignment with val, zj and fahms,
i suddenly got a wake up call. which threw me out of all i was thinking of. which i know i needed and shouldve gotten a really long time ago.
i mean its sucky that i have to go through the same thing twice in less than 6 months.
but still. why do i have to go through it and get over it like im some superwoman. fahms says its my luck. well, i guess my luck's just rock bottom then. im crappy i know. fmyl.

anyway, i couldnt concentrate on the assignment the whole time.
what made it worse was the part that my phone DIED on me. for about 20mins and suddenly it came to life again.
so i was stoned the whole time.
and i just couldnt get connected to wireless.sg till late.
so anyway. soon we headed to arab street for dinner. and waited with fahms to break fast.

after dinner we headed to ps daiso cos zj wanted to get stuff.
and that was when all that hysterical things happened. all i rmbed that triggered the laughing gas was the part we kept walking along the shelves 'trying' to find each other.
thn there was the part val started taking that clamper thing. and everyone went nuts.
and starbucks was even madder. and ive never seen fahms laugh like that.
anyway all of us were dying from laughing. from 8pm through till 11plus.
NONSTOP.
but it was fun. and it was much needed comfort.

and now back to reality. and i gotta brace myself.

Labels: emotivities, rambles

♥ 1:17 AM

Saturday, August 22, 2009

the black eye circles.

yeah notice the word black instead of dark.
its gone way past that stage.

woke at 7 to study for BF.
i just might be able to scrape through it.
dad picked me up to go for dental.
i just dont have the guts i know.
just that everytime i see that injection thing coming near my face i cringe.
and yeah its the 6th time alr.
so now. im left with 2 bottom ones.
which are the freaking sucky ones i know. ive been prepped tons of times.
and im not feeling like i shud remove them anytime soon.

anyway. my tooth's still bleeding. much rather where it used to be.
so im tasting a lot of blood.
and my left face's kind of swollen.
but doesnt really show, as mom said.
but the pain is just weird.
bahs.
i hate this feeling.
damn me for having to go through it again.
damn me for have 4 wisdom teeth.
anyway ive gotta live through it i know.

nows down to TP and the ER essay.
im forseeing a lot of late nights.
and im feeling super tired about stuff.
im listening to emo songs again. dont get me started. haha.

Labels: events, rambles

♥ 8:56 PM

Friday, August 21, 2009

yeah. tonight im blinded all right.

tmr's BF test.
im so freaking dead. bleah.
i need to go mug soon. but im freaking tiredddd!
my gosh. and so they say the best is yet to come.
which i so totally agree. the 2nd half of aug is nothing but a mad race.
and im so hoping im going to be living through it.
:(

Labels: emotivities, rambles

♥ 8:25 PM

So clear silver moon
Wind moves through my room
Memories of Saturday (memories of Saturday)
Slight turn of her head,
Eyes down when she said,
She's goin' away, goin' away

I need to know this
Am I the fool, am I a victim?
I'd rather know,
You'd rather kiss him, good night, tonight, I'm blinded
I tried, I tried
Is this the way, is this the way it ends?

Dark echoes inside,
Can't sleep through the night
All the words I heard you say (memories of Saturday)
Fade over the yard,
Made under the stars,
Stuck down in this place,
Hands on my face,
I need to know this

Am I the fool, am I a victim?
I'd rather know,
You'd rather kiss him, good night, tonight, I'm blinded
I tried, I tried
Is this the way, is this the way it ends?

Get up and chase the vision
Stand up watch the world go by
Ahhh ahhh
You found, feel the reason
Black clouds are filling up my sky,
Ahhh ahhh yeahhhhh

Am I the fool, am I a victim?
I'd rather know,
You'd rather kiss him
Am I the fool, am I a victim?
I'd rather know,
You'd rather kiss him, good night, tonight, I'm blinded
I tried, I tried
Is this the way, is this the way it ends?

Am I the fool, am I a victim?
I'd rather know,
You'd rather kiss him, good night, tonight, I'm blinded
I tried, I tried
Is this the way, is this the way it ends?

it ends - faber drive.

Labels: lyrics

♥ 8:00 PM

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

im undecided i know.
thats kinda obvious too i know.
its just i need to get over myself. which is proving to be much harder than i thought it would be.
so whilst me trying my very best to mug and all, its back to that same facebook status i used to have.
cos mugging, getting my head off stuff and staying clearheaded just cant coincide nor co-exist in my brain.
its just hard and im in no proficiency to do that.
sounds weird and wrong. but that's exactly how i feel.
so no thanks to me thinking of drinking. nor emoing. and i alr found the kaki to do all that. :D
but still.
LOL its gonna be a freaking nightmare. 2 emokids drinking. crap!
ok hes not exactly a kid anyways.

after the tm thing for fahms we went to supper.
shared stuff with val. im foreseeing im stacking up the calories.
imagine the suppers and the icecream.
its deadly. seriously. imagine the tummy and the thighs. bleah.
yeah im getting conscious. i dont see why i shouldnt anyway.

managed to finally get that financial calculator.
it seems hard to fanthom though, its got 2 manuals for that piece of technology.
and both books are thick. sigh.
thn dinner. was super full. manhatten again.
oh sigh fats.

i just realised im blogging in the midst of studying BF.
sigh. im getting drowsy alr. and that is bad. since i barely did the feedback questions.
oh dear lord, please DO NOT let me flunk BF. i cant flunk that. its 30%!
not to forget the next ER individual assignment's no better. since its essay and 40%.
ooooo please august end quick.

im so in love with faber drive. all their songs rawk and theyre spinning on my itunes all right.

Labels: events, rambles

♥ 10:47 PM

Ignorance - Paramore.

If i'm a bad person, you don't like me
Well, i guess i'll make my own way
It's a circle
A mean cycle
I can't excite you anymore
Where's your gavel?
Your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge, but if you're gonna judge me
Well sentence me to another life.

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
Cause you know
We're not the same
We're not the same
Oh, we're not the same
Yeah, the friends who stuck together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change
Is good
It's good
It's good

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
It's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
It's nice to meet you sir
I guess i'll go
I best be on my way out.

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

This is the best thing that could've happened
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it
It's not a war no, it's not a rapture
I'm just a person but you can't take it
The same tricks that, that once fooled me
They won't get you anywhere
I'm not the same kid from your memory
Well, now I can fend for myself

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
Cause you know
We're not the same
We're not the same
Oh we're not the same
Yeah, we used to stick together
We wrote our names in blood
But i guess you can't accept that the change
Is good
It's good
It's good

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
It's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
It's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

Well, you treat me just like another stranger
It's nice to meet you sir
But, I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

You treat me just like another stranger
It's nice to meet you sir
But, I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out.

tell me about it. thanks for ur time then.

Labels: lyrics

♥ 10:11 PM

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

reminiscing.

saturdayy.
and sigh. MIKKKKEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

met mrtang and accompanied him to watch where got ghost?
cos i almost forgot i promised him that. and he cant make it for monday.
anyway. the show is funny. but no way am i going to catch it again haha.
walked around tampines one and waited for ziming and yingjie.
and cabbed down to keatru's dad's place.
it was sad. i mean yeah thats how wakes are supposed to be.
but the fact that he was fit and all and just collapsed and left. sounds cruel.
anyway, there was lots of catching up to do. cos the rest of them i havent seen in a really long time.
and kelvinson came tooo.
and i realised i was under fahms' block when i saw him walk past with his parents. LOL.

anyway, we talked till 2plus. reached home at 3. weird thing was maybe i was sleepy for too long, it wore out.
so i didnt sleep till 4am.

sunday. met fahms. climbed mt sophia and backed out.
watched G.I. Joe for the 2nd time.
and we managed to talk over ben&jerry's for 2 hours.
thn went to church. was church's 23rd anniversary.
was a performance thing. granny came too.
after it saw the other relatives. it was a pure coincidence. and joy.

monday. proj meeting. went to school.
thn we went to ion. walked around ion. cel was the biggest spender.
thn we ditched cycling for swensen's icecream buffet.
pissed fahms off.
anyway it was madness. i freaking ate 10 scoops of icecream/geleto/sherberts.
and waffles. and i was trying my best to keep away frm the tarts.
LOL.
but was full. imagine how sinful it was. getting full from icecream of all things.

tues. today.
had been trying to study the whole day today.
but i was really tired and slept and slept.
helped fahms for his toastmasters thing.
val and i were feeling super lost.
thn supper. sigh fat.

sat's the test. im freaking out.
:(

Labels: events, rambles

♥ 11:52 PM

Friday, August 14, 2009

ok so its my computer. upsetting.

i cant format my posts!

anyway, updates. i just need to keep track of my life. im losing it.

tues was driving and studying cos of the price and markets test on weds.
mugged in school. thn went to taka for dinner.
went home and couldnt mug anymore cos i was super tired.
snoozed and woke up at 5am in a bid to cram everything into my brain.
went for test and yeah. i should be able to pass. am crossing my fingers.

thurs was project meeting at labs.
first draft's out alr. finally i can free myself from looking at fayol's life.
so while waiting for the movie, fahms and i were watching obsessed and haunting of connecticut.
of which, both we didnt manage to finish.
fahmy drove all of us in a mad race to vivo. and we rushed into the cinema.
luckily we werent late or anything, thanks to the long ads for gv.
anyway, watched Where got ghost?
which was super lame. with snippets of money no enough 2.
LOL.
thn it was dinner and home.

fri. was stoning day. went to kap for lunch.
bought stuffies frm f21 with min at lab.
accompanied fahms to collect the trophys for his tm.
he sent me back. :D
attempted to start vetting fayol's. but was super tired and restless.
so aldwin picked me up and we headed to cheesecake cafe.
and i realised the last time i went was a fri too. haha.
yay i got my dose of happiness. LOL.

tmr. im feeling tired. dont feel like going anywhere. i hope. idk.

Labels: rambles

♥ 11:45 PM

Thursday, August 13, 2009

in school. com lab to be exact.

i know im supposed to be doing my proj.
i know fahms is going to kill me when he sees this post and the time it is posted. esp since he just went out of the lab.

BUT.

sigh. im emoing enough.
stressed been coming along.
i have things to worry about which i so hope i didnt have to.
esp. when i still have 2 proj deadlines, 1 test, 1 wisdom tooth extraction and a driving TP to worry about. for the whole of aug.
and that, is definitely crappy enough.

bleah.

Labels: emotivities, rambles

♥ 3:07 PM

Monday, August 10, 2009

something's wrong with my 'create post' page.
oh wells.

now for the updates.
tues was meeting up with mike.
stoned at cathay starbucks till 5.
and when we were on the bus i had this crazy idea of going sheesha. since he hasnt been to one.
so yeah.
thts exactly what we did. and camwhored. as usual.
hes just. different from before. and its been 5 years.
and it was really nice. the sheesha session i mean.

weds. driving. school. im so going to flunk moi tp.

thurs. met wanlin at ion after proj meeting.
fahms was getting seriously lost and we were practically going around in circles.
ok was in the car for an hour again hahahaa. eventful, yep thts the word.
anyway. we walked around ion, stoned.
and decided to catch G.I Joe.
and started to get all high and everything.
and went to indochine.
the last time i went there was 2006.
anyway, its been 3 years. and nothing's changed.

fri. UP! rawks. uber cute. uber sweet. uber fantastic. cheesecake cafe rawks too. LOL.

sat. agnes' birthday. thn we stoned at forbidden city.

sun. church. pastor khong's message is scary. proj meeting at cathay.
its national day. feels weird enough.
since i was underground when the parade was on and stuff.
anyway, reached home late. only managed to catch the back few chapters.
am bummed i cant see the fireworks ever since ndp isnt at kallang.

i gotta admit. i am getting fat.
damn.
i need to go jog again.
it just seems the part of gaining is definitely increasing a tad too much as compared to the losing part.
sigh.

life's been monotonous. i guess.
it just feels like time's going really slowly.
idk why but everything seemed to not be quite that long ago.
is it just me? cos i rmbed time passing a lot faster.
sigh.

Labels: events, rambles

♥ 11:19 PM

Monday, August 03, 2009

jogging at mstan's estate....

proved to be a bad move.
because wherever i jogged. i saw dogs.
and no way was i going to take my chances and let them come after me.
so i had to stroll, walk, whateves whenever i saw them close.
so i dont know how much i actually ran.
LOL.

i shall just go back to my old route.

and omg. im starting to dread doing on henri fayol.

Labels: rambles

♥ 10:03 PM

im in ruins.

yep. before i start wallowing in self-pity as fahms would say i need to let it all out.
anyway.
thurs was k with the rest and botak jones. i might have blogged abt it before. my lappy's hanging. and its real bad.
fri was sch and kuo-hsiung.
havent seen him since my holidays.
which means its been 1month i guess.
and tht reminds me that a lot has happened in that one month.
and so now im thinking.
how will things be like for me one month later
will i finally pass my tp which i shouldve ages ago.
would i pass my tests and manage to finish my projects.
would i not feel as much pain for my 2nd wisdom tooth extraction like i seriously seriously hoped.

anyway, back to the outing.
was supposed to meet him at cine.
i was late, as usual. (blame my time management skills)
took the bus from sch and realised i lost my ezlink.
used coins and when i reached gleneagles i realised i didnt have coins or anything so i cabbed to taka to find him at kino.
and so yeah. i finally met him and he reminded me that i could topup my ezlink at atms.
which was when i realised i was such a klutz.
so then we walked to cine.
and talked for a few hours (!) seriously not bad.
thn we went to watch overheard.
which was depressing, esp. seeing the number of ppl dying and grossly dying.
thn it was waterfront @ esplanade.
jazz was playing. not bad at alll.
and that french song that i heard in french class! i forgot the title. not helene tho.
thn it wasnt till 9 plus that we left.
i reached home at 10 tht night. which was considered early. as compared to any of the nights the past month.
mom and dad seems used to it alr.

sat was hectic.
i had school in the morning.
and everyone agreed i looked really really tired.
thn it was driving.
fahms and wq accompanied me there.
and i was early.
the lesson was parallel parking. which i so dreaded and tot i would flunk and case a massive rampage on poles and loud cranking sounds were coming my way.
BUT> all of which did not happen.
i saw afiq. but he didnt see me.

so naturally when i saw him at the bbq it was driving talk. LOL
but its cool that hes having his tp soon too.
hopefully we'll all just pass or smth.
anyway, back to the bbq part.
it was sweet.
but i think i was stoned.
i had been feeling stoned the whole day so no thanks to me not talking or finding the moon kind of mesmerizing.
seriously, i want to be more hyper, as i would put it.
but i was tired.
so after drinking i was really really knocked out.
i slept in the freaking cab!
luckily the uncle didnt drive me anywhere weird and i was barely conscious.
otherwise i doubt i'll be anywhere where anyone could find me.

thing is. i couldnt really sleep when i got back.
i just keep tossing and turning on my bed.
and i woke up at 7am.
uploaded pics. looked at my super stoned and fugly state in the pics (gawd). and then headed for church.
and omg. can someone pls tell me how i managed to cry again in svc.
all i rmb was before holy communion at my fave song. i started tearing.
ok the song is sad. esp. when the movie was sad enough. but yeah i cried!.
which was when i realised i was going to be freaking tired and cranky the whole day.

anyway went to meet fahms and cel to do hmt.
henri fayol's name and bio is like etched in my brain.
the non courtesy lion of singaporeans left an impact on me.
libraries just doesnt seem like the place to be nice.
and fahms left us at 3pm.
anyway. we were project-ing till 7pm. when we decided to go destress which the both of us so obviously need.
she managed to get earrings and stuff. and me. sigh. i just dont have the kind of luck to see smth i really like or whateves.
im just glad i managed to get tht topshop dress the last time but when am i going to actually wear that ive got no idea. oh wells.

reached home at abt 10plus. still considered early.
dad made soup.
reheated soup and drank soup with dad.
mom was project-ing away as usual.
i still find it funny that mom doesnt cook but dad does.
and dad's the chauvinist one.
odd.

i slept real early last night. i think all the lack of sleep was taking its toll on me.
esp with project stress and me not knowing how i am going to go through my aug.
i need assurance ppl. :(

anyway. tdy was supposed to meet wanlin. but her boy boy is sick.
and decided not to meet aldwin either since im starting to get panicky abt project and their due dates.
so.......
today im on my best behavior staying home (finally!) and doing my project.

tmr driving's in the morning.
and im still upset at the part that one instructor told me to book this many lessons while the others are telling me that i shouldnt have. oh great. did i do exceptionally bad for that lesson that he made me book 5 extra slots?
and might be meeting mike, after the longest time ever.

my point is, now im trying to weigh my options.
am i really going to be flying to aussie to finish my degree or the masters that dad is definitely going to force me to take.
which means. im going to see yeetern and all in melbourne.
which reminds me of the number of friends i have in aussie.
in canada.
in USA.
in UK.

oh great. and im in sunny sg. for now.

cos the future. is undecided.

Labels: events, rambles

♥ 2:38 PM

Saturday, August 01, 2009

Back me down from backing up
Hold your breath now it's stacking up
Etched with marks but i can deal
And you're the problem and you can't feel

Try this on straitjacket feeling
So maybe i won't be alone
Take back now my life you're stealin'

Yesterday was hell,
But today i'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all i ever thought you'd be
That face is tearing holes in me again

Trust you is just one defense
With a list of others you don't make sense
Beg me time and time again
To take you back now but you can't win
Take back now my life you're stealin

Yesterday was hell,
But today i'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all i ever thought you'd be
that face is tearing holes in me

But today i'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you

And when that memory slips away
There will be a better view from here
And only lonesome you remains
And just the thought of you i fear
Grip falls away

Yesterday was hell,
But today i'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all i ever thought you'd be
that face is tearing holes in me

But today i'm fine without you
Run away this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you

Straitjacket feeling - the all american rejects

Labels: lyrics

♥ 10:47 AM

I know i shouldn't be wallowing in self-pity and such but still.
I mean certain things it's just inevitable but the fact is that when all I want to do is just ignore, it just haunts me over and over again.
Could I just give it all up or just let live my life simply, like how someone would put it.
It's just the various modes of conversations, the actions and everything is just draining my brain cells and baffling enough. And the sucky thing is that i just realized I just gone through the exact same thing about a month ago just that it isn't what it is and I knew it from the start. And now it's like threefold.

I know I've been emoing a lot these days but it just doesn't seem enough. I hide my emotions and live in my shell is right.

Labels: emotivities

♥ 10:24 AM