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Wednesday, September 30, 2009

it is always when i look back and realise.
what have i wasted my time on.

and i looked back and realised.
that i never meant anything. and you didnt want anything.
no strings attached.

monday was stoning at home.
had steamboat at night at joaquim at suntec with unimates. :D
stoned at marina cos we couldnt go to esplanade. the fences werent taken down yet.

tues met up with m.
jammed at pomo. it was cool seriously. when theyre pros. and im feeling novice/juvenile/whatnots.


tdy was pool.
and f21's here. :D





misguided ghosts - paramore.

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10:14 PM


Monday, September 28, 2009

just when i thought everything was going to be a beautiful coincidence.
it turned out not that beautiful after all.

i loved it when i turn to mtvasia i always saw green day's 21 guns playing.
i loved it when everything fell into place nicely.

it was all anticipation when i was going to club this thurs.
until.
all hell broke loose.
photog workshop's on thurs. still okay.
class on thurs became 830am. oh nuts.
and omfg. guitar club meeting's on thurs tooo.
and omfgx2. there's this sim butterfact event on thurs.
rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

sometimes.
things falling into place.
could get get you crushed.

and im sure i am.
good luck to me.
its gonna be hectic.

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1:15 PM



If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you’re the one would you believe me
If I ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say
So you don’t leave me
The world is catching up to you while your running away to chace your dream
Its time for us to make a move cuz we are asking one another to change
And maybe im not ready but

Chorus:
I try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love

We’ve been hiding enough
If I sing you a song

Would you sing along
Away till im gone
Oh how we're pushing through
If I give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me it’s the start of something beautiful
Am I catching up to you while your running away to chase your dreams
Its time for us to face the truth cuz we’re coming to eachother to change
And maybe im not ready but

Chorus x2

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you’re the one would you believe me



Try by Asher Book
Fame OST.

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12:08 AM


Saturday, September 26, 2009

success is when you wake up happy about what you're doing.
success is when you go to sleep you're happy about what you have done.
success is having joy, freedom and friendship.
[fame, 2009]

i need to keep track of my life. and what ive done. thats why this blog existed i guess.
updates:
thursday was project submission day.
went to lecture late.
got lunch from mac's drive thru.
only got to lecture during break.
ammended proj a little at labs.
handed it in.
went to fahmy's place for raya.
played wii.
played guitar.
hs is pro seriously.
dinnered at simpang :D

yesterday was supposed to be the stony day.
i dont know but with everything that happened the past 2 months. i somehow felt i needed time for myself.
just doing nth at home. or finding something to do.
bottomline is at home and by myself. i guess i just need the peace and quiet.
yet i know it sucks to not see anyone and cover myself in that shell of mine again.
that's not the point.

anyway. met val,zj,fahms,hs,cel and watched 4bia2.
and damnnit it was freaky.
as much as the coward i already am when it comes to horror, though i freaking hate gore, somehow the show was nice.
haha.
but some parts are crap lar.
so the story's to tell.

1. do not throw stones at cars u might kill your dad and you'll get haunted when u take away offerings for the hungry ghosts. (uncanny resemblance with where got ghost?)
2. do not stay at the hospital ward with a brain dead patient who's living on a respirator and is a leader of a cult.
3. do not hitchhike. you might get onto a drug dealer's truck and there're nothing but dead bodies at the back.
4. do not buy secondhand cars or sell secondhand cars for that matter. the cars could have gone through accidents and have had people jumping off buildings and landing on them.
5. it's okay to film ghost stories. just make sure you do know who are the ones alive and dont get cursed.

met aldwin.
had aston's.
watched fame.
its seriously cool lar.
if i get school breaks like that i would be ecstatic. haha.
a bit monotonous i agree. but overall it isnt as bad as the 2star rating.
and the song is nice.
trained to timbre.
just for goodfellas. haha.
and omg. they sang nobody by wondergirls.
and it was the korean version. LOL.
somehow i felt it was better at substation. bah.
trained home. reached at almost 2.

i need to go run. and i will.

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10:34 AM


Thursday, September 24, 2009

The Only Exception - Paramore

When i was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And cursed at the wind

He broke his own heart
And i watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day i promised
Id never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darlin,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe i know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Or keep a straight face

And i've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that
I'm content With loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk, but

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know your leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

Oh---

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing.
Oh, And Im on my way to believing.




less than a day and its alr 18 play counts. madness.

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1:34 AM



i can finally blog.

finally done with the essay.
i admit ive been lazy and been going out and been lazing around.
but yeah.
i finally dont have to see it for at least 2 weeks?
till i have to hit the books again for exams.

anyway. im suffering from blogger withdrawal symptoms.
so here goes.

sunday met ck.
acc. him to the games convention thing.
but was late barely saw anything. haha.
went to food fair.
saw kuohsiung.
ate a lot. ck ate more.
got famous amos cookies. :D
im an absolute sucker for butterscotch chip with pecan nuts. :D

watched Inglorious Bastards.
was nice and funny. except the slicing scalp parts.
brad pitt's accent is absolutely crap.

walked to esplanade with ck.
m picked us and we went for supper.
thn went for a joyride.
passing by everything from kembangan to marsiling.
hougang, lor ah soo, paya lebar, serangoon, mandai, nee soon camp.
LOL.
dropped ck and we went drinking.
at my fitness corner.
till 4am! gasp.


monday was nice. seriously.
and i think i was in a good mood.
anyway. had din tai fung.
aldwin wanted to do shopping.
and yeah seriously shopped. like what 200 bucks?
lemme list his list: amazingly all tees. from edit., everlast, bossini, pull and bear.
i managed to get a tank frm pull and bear and polo from net. i keep feeling like ive got no clothes to wear these days sigh.
headed to timbre.
booked a table.
and we were feasting like hungry ghosts. LOL.
buffalo wings. half and half (roast duck and german sausage). indigo. strawberry champagne.
it was kinest asia. reverie&rene was playing.
got super tired and left early.
walked to esplanade.
stoned there and omg.
i finally own him one song for tap tap.
and its a song i like lar. haha.
trained home.
super tired and slept.
which meant. i didnt manage to do anything at all for the friggin essay!.

so tues and weds was nothing but doing the essay.
mcdonald's delivery screwed up. so the guy had to send me my stuff again.

when dad's at home it usually means i'll get fat.
cos he makes sure i eat my meals.

tmr's school. this week's nice seriously. only 1 lesson this week.
and tmr gonna go fahms place for puasa :D




and omg. paramore's new album rocks. from the first song to last. tho. ignorance's been out for some time. but seriously. i think im gonna posts lots of lyrics. :D


and i realised i wrote real bad for this entry. oh great so all my literary skills got eaten up by hmt too.

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1:05 AM


Tuesday, September 22, 2009

screw scientific management. screw taylor.

i swore. yeah i know. not the first time anyways.

BLEAH HMT SUCKS!!!!!!


5:19 PM


Sunday, September 20, 2009

technology is a mad race.


1:54 PM



sometimes. it doesnt mean ur assertion worked and im following ur perspective.
sometimes, its just i cant be bothered or am too pissed or too tired to continue that conversation.
and sometimes, that is because you never saw it in my perspective in the first place.





rahhhhhhhhh. im so going to kill frederick taylor. wait. he died.


12:02 PM



randoms is love.

im am so freaking screwed my hmt report still stands at 0 words.
so screwed so screwed so screwed.
argh. frederick winslow taylor!

yesterday woke super early trying to do hmt.
and great. i think i stoned the whole morning.
other than guitar which was a mediocre one.
but yeah.
went to BF class.
we were late.
stoned in class.
and omg. i was listening! and i understood what the lecturer said!. with minimal distraction.
which meant wifi was used minimally. i wasnt scribbling things in my notebook. and i was writing and highlighting notes.
maybe thats just cos i was refusing to start reading up the stuff for the proj.
bah. its taxing. :X

after school we went to smu flea.
didnt really see anything. actually we didnt really look.
took bus to cine.
played foosball. and omg. i love foosball even more now :D.
played about 5 rounds.
dinnered at shokudo streets. we stoned till 10 plus almost 11.
trained home.
slept almost immediately.
sigh.

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9:32 AM



Fortune Teller Genius

Question: f**k

Answer: No... don't waste your time on that.

LOL.

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9:26 AM


Saturday, September 19, 2009

mike: im in love with a psycho.
abby: are you calling me a psycho?
mike: im trying to tell you im in love with you and all you heard was psycho?

180909
school was upsetting.
lecture ended in an hour. LOL.
anyway, got brunch from drive-thru.
went home and stoned in the front of the computer. with occasional practice of songs.
met daryl and huimin.
its been a seriously long 5 years!
gonna miss him when he goes to uk. sigh.
bah why is everyone flying away :(

anyway, went to parkway.
got a lift from daryl to town.
walked to wheelock.
bought a book.
walked back to mrt.
took mrt to cathay.
stoned at starbucks while waiting for ck.
cathay was kinda full.
went to ps instead.
caught a movie. think im gonna watch it again.
but its seriously nice and practical.
caught last train home.

im so screwed. how do i get my mind into doing hmt again.

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8:34 AM


Thursday, September 17, 2009

daily updates?

its become a habit i guess.

woke up super early for BF class.
was super tired.
slept in fahms' car.
my lappy's batt died super fast.
oh wells, its antique. haha.
and as usual we werent listening in class again.
im pretty sure we'll be mugging nuts like the last exams.

lunched at makan place.
and then we headed to nlb.
fahms drove and gasp! the parking fee's a whopping 8 bucks.
for about 4 hours.
got books.
i swear i was super tired.
shimin exclaimed she was going to fall asleep.
gawd. me too.
i almost died.
esp. when the books were small font and thick.
i met this uber nice librarian who's super nice :D she should get an award or something.

acc. fahmy to get dinner.
i got botak jones. :D
this just means i need to go jogging again.
gotta lose the pounds!

im just foreseeing the coming days till next wed im going to be uber stoned with scientific management in my head. all clogged up in my brain.

and that will definitely impair my thoughts.
so dont mind me when i start to act weird or get exuberantly high or emo. LOL.

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10:34 AM


Wednesday, September 16, 2009

21 guns bagged the awards. im not complaining thts for sure :D.

anyway, im feeling kind of unlucky.
since my zip for the pencilbox broke and my phone's stylus string thingy broke too.
oh great.


11:19 PM



the bones form dents on my hands.

met kor.
watched blood ties. which wasnt scary as how i heard it would be.
yeah love story is right. haha.
but its different from the conventional ones. just the repeating parts gets me dizzy.
went to shisha.
the regular place wasnt going to have shisha till 7.
the other place wasnt open.
so we just found somewhere with shisha.
stoned for long.
got dinner.
play pool.
got booze.
went to ecp.
and contd stoning.
and seriously. it is nice talking to him cos i get advice. good ones. practical ones.
its just i need to get that courage to do the things he said i should.
but its easier said than done.

anyway, my life's kind of back to normal i guess.
just that the occasional bouts of emotional weird stuff would get to me.
which. i try my best to get over.
but oh great im feeling it again when im typing this.
maybe its the proj thats due soon.

argh i need to get a life.

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8:10 PM


Monday, September 14, 2009

the daily affair.

i think its my body clock. ive been waking up automatically.
woke up feeling a sore throat is coming. and it freaked me out.
cos my sore throats always last for 2 weeks. and it usually means i have to go see the doc for the second time cos its not cleared even after i finish the meds.
and i hate to feel that i cant talk.

so i was downing lots of water and that honey tea thing i found at home.
listened to mtv.
played guitar.
attempted to try to start hmt to no avail. this is bad. i need to start!
then packed stuff and left the house.
realised i didnt eat anything till when i was on the train.
got mrs field's again :D
and water.
went to practice room with fahms to start piano lesson 1.
booked 1.30-3.30.
but left at 5. LOL.
perks of going on a ulu day. hahaha.

went to roof for guitar session.
bar chords are killing me.
its either my fingers dont press that well. or the sound just turns out stubby.
sigh.
and seriously i was losing my voice. :(

headed hm.
fahms was late for buka.

my phone seems to have a mind of its own.

met aldwin to pass the guy his cd.
he forgot all abt it.
anyway. dinner at simpang.
walked hm from there.
went to ntuc.
stoned at fitness corner.
saw my art teacher.
and headed home.
i dont know what ive been doing since 10pm.
sigh.
and im feeling restless alr.
bah.

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11:19 PM


Sunday, September 13, 2009

i keep doing things that i know i will regret.
bah how to stop myself from telling.
im hoping he'll erase it. sigh.


12:32 PM



10th day since the aftermath.
and im still living.
thank god.
thanks to the guitar.
thanks the senses i still have in me.

btw, this is post 650th.


3:19 AM



its interesting how things turn out. even after some time.

woke.
guitared.
stoned.
left home for ben & jerry's chunkfest.
which was kind of disappointing.
was it cos i was early? but no wait, it was 4pm.
and the weather was a tad too good.
coincidentally met amos at the queue for the shuttle bus from marina bay to marina barrage. haha
was supposed to meet him there. but we were late.
met shimin.
had triple caramel. :D
val and yy decided not to come.
so. met them at somerset.
foosballed.
stoned at gloria jean's.
headed to pasir ris. bh's birthday.
saw xiaoyou and boss and taigong. :D
amos was late for our pact.
went to arcade and played pool at ehub.
boss gave a lift home. :)

i realised certain things need to be let out of the system. although the things might lead to wrong interpretations. and though at times its weird. even if it means that you didnt used to be close to that person.

and yeah. maybe i should write my own 'just not that into you' book. LOL.

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2:54 AM


Saturday, September 12, 2009

mom sent me an email about retirement.
is that a hint?


1:18 AM



myself.

reflections for this one.
i realised.
i havent been myself the past few months.
its always either trying to keep myself in that protective circle or just making a tad too many moves which i nvr thought i would do.
and which. is not me.
okay its confusing.
im confused myself.
but thats how ive been feeling for a long time. and its tiring.
so seriously. any weird or inane behaviours of mine. please ignore me. treat me as invisible. whatnots.

school. was stoning as usual. except that we were sitting practically in front of lecturer.
so all i rmbed was val and zj playing bingo.
i was a good girl and took notes but was soon bought over by my itouch.
shimin was soon bought over by horoscope reading on a webby fahms found.
fahms was using his phone to surf.
cel was reading on the horoscope stuff too and listening to songs.
oh great.
LOL. the things we do in class seriously.
and seriously. the lecturer was staring at us.
i'll be so dead, come october. :X

went to kino. helped shimin queue for the mag.
played bingo.
the japanese guy is super nice.
and it was funny. cos we were playing our 14 rounds of bingo. and there were occasional giggles.
he came over and thought what was wrong and thn he realised we were bingo-ing.
and he said: 'oh. game - o.' but jap, ive forgotten most of it.
we lunched at crystal jade.
and headed to mind's cafe.
and i realised the last time i was at mind's. i was booking the hotel room to stay with fel and ck.
and i realised it was when everything was okay and went normal.
when we were all still talking and everything.
but yeah. its been more than a month alr.

anyway left early and met aldwin.
dinnered. manhatten.
9 was selling fast at gv.
walked to cathay. but they werent showing.
walked the whole of cathay.
thn walked to esplanade.
finally got my brownie :D
and OMG!! WEST GRAND BOULEVARD WAS PLAYING!
and i thought i totally missed them for baybeats.
but yeah it was nice.
got owned for tap tap revenge.
sigh.

been super tired these days though.
and sleeping early.
and i need to start my hmt. i havent even chosen the topic.

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12:57 AM


Thursday, September 10, 2009

blogger's layout is nuts again.

oh great im feeling super high now.
and i wonder why
tdy was madness.
i woke up early.
and felt hungry
so went down to ntuc to get food to bring to lec.
at 8am. 8AM!
and fahms was picking up at 8.30am.
which meant i had half an hour to get food. get changed. pack my bag.
lol. and i made it! :D

anyway. we were totally not listening in class.
listening to songs more like.
hmt lecturer must be upset.
but. sigh. it seriously is tiring.
and concentration is hard to achieve though its required thats for sure.
so how am i going to actually do my assignment and pass through my exams!!!
gawd.
esp. when its all cluttered to the time after my 21st.
after my 2nd tp.
tell me about it.

anyway, after class we caught gamer.
gerard butler is just seriously uber uber handsome. and cute and whatnots. :D
it was okay lar the show. quite cool.
val reminded me how i always had crispy chicken for breaks when i was still working at cathay.
but seriously havent had it in the longest time ever.

went to the IT fair.
crowded like nuts on a thurs.
and itouch was selling at 388bucks for 16gb.

itouch died.
so endured the journey home without music.
cleared a lot of msges.
had dinner with dad before heading to aunt;s place to see granny.
she hasnt been feeling well. back aches.
seen the doc but the doc just said she carried heavy stuff. and she didnt.
gave her meds to improve blood circulation.
she says its better now but she cant sit for too long.
same situation as my aunt. sigh.

and i saw bobby. aww i miss him so much. :D

krys' exams end when kim's starts LOL.


anberlin's spinning on itunes.
i just wonder how on earth with 700 songs on my itunes. i can keep getting that same song nonetheless when its on shuffle.
i am just that unlucky arent i.

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11:27 PM


Wednesday, September 09, 2009

090909.

i dont talk normal when im sleepy.


11:40 PM



a woman fell off the cliff when her boyfriend proposed to her.
so much for falling in love.

im really becoming a panda.
my dark eye bags are beyond recognition. :(
its time for eye brighteners. and sleep.

ive been fiddling with bf a tad too much.
that sounds wrong. i think i should call him something else.
but guitar is so.. i dont know.
so. sigh i should just find some way to call him.

anyway. instead of studying for my prices and markets test.
ive been trying to figure my guitar out.
the chords and such.
i still suck at tabs i think. i always have this urge to turn my lappy over. cos tabs read differently from chords.
and i guess i have a one-track mind when it comes to reading such stuff.
as so for my piano, just that im more used to it. after all, its been some time and ive been scolded tons of times more.

so. now im trying to learn blind by lifehouse. haha.
6th day running. please let the interest not wear out this time though. its worn out too many times.

anyway, updates.
monday was spent at home and practiced the songs and three cheers on piano.
dad was home. he's kind of lost his sense of taste. sigh.
met aldwin for dinner.
and then it was i love you, beth cooper. which was okay.
and oh great i realised i didnt manage to get anything into my brain for test.
so came tuesday, and i was seriously determined to mug p&m. i had to i couldnt be flunking anything now.
but yeah. i mugged the whole day. with occasional distractions.
so tdy's test. i wasnt confident at all.
and got briyani again. i should stop eating it for some time.

and im upset. i still cant do the tongue trill after so long.
how am i to go on for the brett manning's singing success. LOL.
i still have 9 discs to go. sigh. i regret not listening to him during the workshop that time.

tmr's more or less back to life.
just tht the next due date for history of management thought is 24sept.
which one month later is my birthday.
and 22oct is next tp. oh please let me pass this time.

should i get serious guitar training? sigh.

omg and the tongue trill. bah.
i figured i returned everything i learned to choir.

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11:09 PM


Monday, September 07, 2009

im not going to coop myself in.
there's like a whole, much bigger world out there.

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4:31 PM



I don't want this moment, to ever end,
Where everything's nothing, without you.
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile,
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.

Through it all, I made my mistakes.
I stumble and fall,
But I mean these words.

I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, and I won't let go.

Thoughts read are spoken, forever in doubt.
And pieces of memories fall to the ground.
I know what I didn't have so, I won't let this go.
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.

All the streets, where I walked alone,
With nowhere to go.
Have come to an end.

I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, and I won't let go.

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies,
When you don't know what you're looking to find.
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies,
When you just never know what you will find.

(What you will find, what you will find, what you will find.)

I don't want this moment to ever end.
Where everything's nothing without you.

I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, and I won't let (go).
I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, and I won't let go.



with me - sum41

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3:33 PM



each moment is as slow and transparent as glass

time. what is time.
somehow i wished that i could time travel. just like henry.
no actually, like alba. least i can choose.

met wanlin.
had aston's.
im seriously pigging out again.
this is bad. i need to lose the pounds.
anyway. we were shopping in marks and spencer.
got chips and cookies.
dropped by yamaha. didnt get the capo and tuner. sigh.

went to raffles city.
super tempted to shop again.
walked to bras basah.
swee lee didnt have what i was finding :(.
got ice-cream.
thn walked back to cathay.
watched time traveler's wife.
its nice. its sweet. its better than i expected.
the emotions and all.

didnt know what to do. so went to carrefour.
didnt have anything with us other than our bags.
but oh wells. got a trolley.
went around.
sat the keyboard thing and we started playing. haha.
miss those days seriously.
and omg i found one place that the demo toys actually work! carrefour! LOL.
anyway, we sat till they were closing.
thn trained home.


i need to start p&m tdy. its on wed and i havent started reading up. im so screwed.

i like the pain/numbing feeling on the left fingertips.
idk why but i do.
:D

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9:29 AM


Sunday, September 06, 2009

when the merlion act never ends.


05sept09
school on saturdays are never fun.
much less the odd timings theyre starting to get planned at.
anyway, class was 12-3pm.
and we headed down to esplanade in hope to book piano room to teach piano.
then. i remembered how it was constantly full 1 year ago.
well, things havent changed.
still gotta book it 2 days in advance.
so in the end we just walked around.
stoned at rooftop terrace.
waited for the maestro people to come back from tea which they never did for the whole hour.
seriously. im missing baybeats so much.
esplanade just feels empty without baybeats.
tho. theyre still the acts and all. but still...

tried the three cheers for five years piano.
other than the front and all, the center sounds weird. gotta figure it out.

and starting to get used to guitar. tho. still noob.
'least i can play love story and when i'm with you.
but my strumming and picking still sucks. bah.
managed to photocopy misery business and crushcrushcrush tabs. but omg. its hard.
and its electric guitar.

dad cooked. :D

met val, min, cel.
clubbed. at rebel.
didnt drink a lot. but felt weird.
elbowing.
and it seemed a lot of ppl puked that night.
reached home 5am.
super super tired. :(

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10:57 AM


Saturday, September 05, 2009

3.5 hours later

my fingers on my left hand are numb.
had guitar session with fahms and cel.
i still dont feel them.
have been lugging my guitar everywhere.

stoned at ck's place to wait for him to get changed.
went to cathay. a lot of movies were sold out.
saw vanisha and hana :D
catched G Force.
super cute. :D
had ben&jerry's. strawberry cheesecake.
sinful.

still havent tried playing the scores.

ive been watching movies a tad too much. ive been watching 7 movies in 8 days. omg.
and there's still a lot more to go.
time traveller's wife and i love you beth cooper.
the month of sept's gonna be nuts.

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2:42 AM


Friday, September 04, 2009

hurtx-smilex.blogspot.com

is no more.
and ive been asked why.
i agree i kind of miss the old addy.
it was easier to rmb.
but childish lar. no meh?
haha.

ive been struggling with the guitar chords.
the super basic ones.
im totally noob i know.
thanks daryl.
thanks fahms.
:D
and yay im finally gonna get the piano scores for three cheers for five years acoustic!!
gonna start playing.
but oh wait. i have p&m test on wed.
bah.


who gives. LOL. :)

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7:45 AM


Thursday, September 03, 2009

fahms wants to tear my bf apart.

LOL.

guitar's done. :D
but needs to season the strings and all.
retail therapy was totally unexpected.
got my guitar bag, guitar pick, a newsboy cap, shorts, tank.

dad's cute.
he's constantly finding things to do.
haha.

and im getting a headache from the coffee.
i cant drink coffee for nuts.

got price and markets test next wed.
need to start mugging again.

gonna start playing with my guitar.
and brett manning's discs.

btw pics for baybeats are up.
thanks to pengli for his DSLR and some pics are by him. :D
and i think i totally lost my touch. the last time i actually took pictures were a long time ago.

BAYBEATS 290809-300809: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=147675&id=705767906&l=8fcb043f80


too many movies to catch yet too little time. :(

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6:56 PM


Wednesday, September 02, 2009

my guitar.

is practically dying.
what makes things worse is the strings breaking and the cover coming apart.
i admit ive been leaving it lying at that corner of my room.
so its time i should do something about it.

fahms helped change the strings. (not done tho.)
cover. i reckon i should drop by some place to get it soon.
bah i miss maestro. haha.

Coco avant chanel was okay.
for a biography it wasnt totally sleep-inducing.
and her life isnt crazily eventful. other than the fact that the english guy died.
she never married.
and she was trying to fit into the parisan society, by standing out.
but she's just a woman with a lot of pride and ego. and character for that matter.
i am envious.

dad's hospital leave seems more like a holiday.
he's been cooking and doing whatnots.
and he even wants dimsum again!.
thats not how a man who has 2 wisdom teeth and one bad tooth removed and with all the stitches and all should act. haha.
but im glad he isnt hurting.
and its nice seeing him at home often. cos my parents are usually home late.

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10:44 AM


Tuesday, September 01, 2009

dad: im getting lunch. whatd u want?
me: porridge.
dad: WHAT?!

LOL. he must be thinking ive gone nuts.

i just havent had it in a long time. forgotten how its like.

but after eating it. i know i should just keep away from it.

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10:02 AM



280809-300809

im guessing it'll be a long list.
anyway, in short.

280809
i failed my tp. it was like a sign.
i handed in ER project.
i watched final destination 4 in 3d.
i met up with ed, chubby, yingjie, ck at blk85.
we wanted to catch a movie but showtimes were a tad too late.
home. 2300hrs.

290809
met zach, rak, zach's friend.
l4d-ed. i suck seriously.
watched bruno.
shisha-ed.
baybeats is LOVE.
http://www.baybeats.com.sg/2009/
caught taken by cars.
caught chris collingwood.
caught opposition party.
watched the proposal.
home. 0300hrs.

300809
met pengli.
watched year one.
finally got my phone from samsung center at ps after a week.
went to baybeats.
anberlin's acoustic set was madness crowded. could hear but not see them.
headed to nigel hogan's at chillout.
pengli saw his friend.
got asked to do long survey by esplanade people.
realised i missed a lot of acts this year as compared to the last.
been to 4 baybeats.
caught inch chua's. psp's the next instrument.
caught lunar node.
caught jon chan. he's uber good.
caught anberlin. started late. but freaking rocked big time, as always!! :D but was super crowded. got knocked on the head. and they encored! LOVE.
took pics with pengli's dslr.
pics will be up on fb soon.
home. 0030hrs.

310809
accompanied dad to ttsh dental clinic.
he didnt want me to wait for him.
so met fahms, val, zj, cel, shimin.
watched scandal makers. unexpectedly good.
walked ion. fahms got his dessert.
stoned at lido mac's.
home. 2355hrs.





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9:04 AM



my wallowing just got to a new level.

i hope its not the wrong idea thing.
maybe it was just my wishful thinking.
it just sucks to see it all like this.
like how i realise things just arent the same as before.
like now im thinking how many blogposts have i posted because of you.

my vulnerability is killing me.



-
Just talk yourself up
And tear yourself down
You built your wooden wall
Now find a way around
Well what's the problem?
You've got a lot of nerve

So what did you think I would say?
No you can't run away, no you can't run away
So what did you think I would say?
No you can't run away, no you can't run away
You wouldn't

I never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stay
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away
You threw it away

I'm not so naive
My sorry eyes can see
The way you fly shy
Of almost everything
Well, if you give up
You'll get what you deserve

So what did you think I would say?
No you can't run away, no you can't run away
So what did you think I would say?
No you can't run away, no you can't run away
You wouldn't

I never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stay
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away
You threw it away

You were finished long before
We had even seen the start
Why don't you stand up, be a man about it?
Fight with your bare hands about it now

I never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stay well did you
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away

I never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stay
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away



for a pessimist, i'm pretty optimistic - paramore.

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8:57 AM