Cest moi.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

to take everything with a pinch of salt.
and so they say.

anyway. fahms philosophy about when you get closer to someone the brain sends some chemicals to make you want to see that person more.
im pretty sure he meant his relationship with ll tho.
ms tan doesnt agree.

anyway, watched sherlock holmes which turned out to be good. seriously robert downey jr was super cute. and jude law too and the bulldog.
and we took random pics with alvin and the chipmunks.
headed to timbre and caught the last 2 sets.
lots of crap with mstan.
the good old days are always the best.

cant believe i got stoned with one pint of erdinger. sucks.

with the frenzy of the third merde. i shall put my life back together again.
the guitar's became the trusty companion. and i love it genuinely.

Labels: rambles.

♥ 1:21 AM

Sunday, December 27, 2009

post 701.

i read that the creativity cells just work better from 12-3pm.
so i figured this should be the best time to blog.

meeting people, clubbing, trails, shops, movies, FOOD, and timbre. just rocks.
going home late is now definitely the norm.

but yeah, yesterday was 2/1's class gathering and seriously, it was fun.
and i realised i do have a short term memory.
seriously, how could i forget shuwen!
and i still cant remember who she is. this is bad.
but the stories of the good old days are just funny and everything nice.
its just the juvenile things that we did that made it all so much more fun.
and school just didnt seem like a chore.
unlike, unfortunately, now, where studies meant where u'll end up in the 1.5 years to come.
wait, no, make that 2.5 years to go. just that i dont know where i'll be going yet after 1.5 years.
but yeah, everyone overseas is just livin the vida loca. so i should totally just look forward to it and accept it as it is right?

i guess.

anyway, it was dc's belated birthday.
and hangovers were evident.
i should thank my lucky stars that after approx more than 1pint of erdinger i still could walk straight.
and no more bruises this time. birthday boy says to drink and drink i shall.
but yeah it was nice seeing limin change so much! she reminds me of someone whom david refuses to admit is pretty. wait i shudnt mention it here.
and nat!
and junlong! and junlong's gf! haha.
it was just funny lar. i just hope i didnt do anything weird yesterday. like seriously. i should totally link my tweet cos after yesterday night, it made total sense.
'i realised i should just hush up when there's alcohol and not enough sleep'.
KUDOS>

anyway, we caught alvin and the chipmunks 2 after a thorough thrashing session of pool.
cos the foosball machine was spoilt. SPOILT! please just repair it soon man.
and my knees were killing me during the whole movie.
and then we headed to mac's after the movie since it was 3.
stories are good to listen to. which reinforces my theory that i prefer to listen. which just might not be the best thing i should do sometimes.

anyways, yesterday was fun. and i agree, we should totally do this more often.

and a quick note: the guy who said that creative cells work better from 12-3pm was lying. it was a total fraud. cos truth is, i'm still writing weird now. damn.

Labels: events, rambles

♥ 1:37 PM

Saturday, December 26, 2009

john mayer.

yeap this post is dedicated to mister john mayer.
cos seriously, he rocks.
if there was a shakespeare who wrote love songs instead of people dying from poison, he has to be john mayer. and so it goes. his lyrics just. makes me go. awwww.

comfortable - john mayer.

I just remembered, that time at the market
snuck up behind me and jumped on my shopping cart
And rode down, aisle 5
you looked behind you to smile back at me
crashed into a rack full of magazines
they asked us if we could leave.

Can't remember, what went wrong last September
Though I'm sure that you'd remind me, if you had to

Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in

I sleep with this new girl i'm still getting used to
my friends all approve, say she's gonna be good for you
they throw me, high fives
She says the bible is all that she reads
and prefers that I not use profanity
your mouth was, so dirty

Life of the party
and she swears that she's artsy
but you could distinguish
Miles from Coltrane

Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in
she's perfect, so flawless
or so they say, say

She thinks I can't see the smile that she's fakin'
and poses for pictures that aren't being taken
I loved you
grey sweat pants, no makeup, so perfect

Our love was, comfortable and
so broken inshe's perfect, so flawless
I'm not impressed, I want you back.

Labels: lyrics, rambles

♥ 4:34 PM

and even more crap to take now? argh.
screw myself man.

♥ 1:27 PM

joyeux noel.

christmas this year just doesnt feel as jolly. why.

Labels: events

♥ 3:11 AM

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

the times we had together.

went back to school for re-enrolment.
suddenly, time seemed to fly by without warning.
the last time i went back to school was technically the day of the last paper. which was 5nov.
so its been more than a month.
its back to the same old fahms picking us up and we going to school.
filling up the forms and getting in line.
the friendly aussie associates helps us get things done.
and we're good to go. till school starts.
its good to see everyone again.
for some reason, it could be that the holidays just felt taxing or ive aged in my thinking.
sometimes, thinking too much with my heart. lol.
but anyways, the whole re-enrolment thing felt more like a reunion.
and everyone;s flying off again. sigh.
anyways. stoning in school is just another pasttime.
we actually played big2 at the benches.
and saboteur after.
headed down to the shisha place at haji.
been some time since i went there. it was still full of the turkish music.
and we practically couched for more than 3 hours.
trying desperately to concentrate on the game of saboteur.

and oh damn. i should seriously post the pic of my 'or che' of the century.
LOL.
and no it hardly looks like a middle finger. i guess. lol.

tmmr's the night out with the dears. :D

Labels: emotivities, events, rambles

♥ 1:35 AM

Sunday, December 13, 2009

i fell real bad yesterday.

it still hurts.
esp when i walk.
dad never says things are serious unless they really are.
and he had tht look on his face when he saw the state and size of my bruise.
which means im pretty much screwed.
he's gonna do the real painful rubbing thing.
and im going to wail the whole night like a sick puppy.
sigh.

slurged today and loads of stuff that are essentials. so not feeling too bad about it.

was super late for church. sigh.

tmr's gonna be interesting. :D

Labels: rambles

♥ 11:42 PM

Brooke Fraser Ligertwood rocks.

the week's been filled with lots of unsuccessful exercising attempts.
l4d 2 sessions.
movies.
and david's guitar.

been buying stuff. but theyre essentials. so wells.

need to brush up on my guitar skills. im still noobshit tho.

ive been hooked onto the song by brooke ligertwood. have been hearing 'his glory appears' in church for the past few months tho.
okay make that quite some time ago alr.
but it always feels damn nice.
and there's just this thing about her and that melody.
the piano solo is wicked. er as in cool wicked not evil wicked.
so seriously. yeah im still listening to it for the umpteenth time. thanks james.
hoping to hear it in church tmr man.

next week's gonna be hectic.
and i still have stuff to do sigh.

if there is one thing i shouldve learned in the past year, with all that crap,
i should never think.
i should never ponder.
i should never expect.
nor should i ever anticipate.
looking forward to is never an option.
its just a coincidence.

so wells, i gotta brace myself. its no use and pointless getting myself into shit all over again. for the 3rd time at least. bleahs.

xmas is coming. where is the love :D

Labels: emotivities, rambles

♥ 12:58 AM

Friday, December 11, 2009

whoever said happy times dont last, has the same bout of negativity as i do.

so kudos to that.
no thanks to the flu.
only consolation is the exam results were better than expected. thank god. thank rmit. lol.

oh and i found the perfect love song. i guess. lol. its old tho. but its spinning on my itunes now.

what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up
and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

all of the things that I want to say
just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping inwards
you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

there's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
everything she does is beautiful
everything she does is right

you and me and all of the people
with nothing to donothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know whyI can't keep my eyes off of you

you and me and all of the people
with nothing to donothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive

you and me - lifehouse

Labels: lyrics, rambles

♥ 1:11 AM

i just knew i totally screwed it all up.

okay crap.

♥ 1:09 AM

Saturday, December 05, 2009

i learned that i should be more appropriate.
cos im not appropriate enough.

its vague i know. it could mean im inadequate in many areas.
that i do not deny. because i do know i make my mistakes.
and sometimes a tad too often.
somethings i didnt mean it that way, but somehow it does get misinterpreted.
the part that i do not realise, however, is the consequences that such problems would make me face.
when i do say something to try to make things clear, who knows?, it might just backfire.
and evidence shows that that's usually the case.
i dont know if it gets offensive or i get offended in the midst of it all. but it got me thinking and the whole frenzy just got me more critical about myself.
is it the pressure i put upon all that?
is it the pressure to be careful in everything i do, because seriously, the society now as it seems, isnt the perfect place to be open and voice out your thoughts. because somehow or another, lets face it, this isnt america.
but when things do get ugly because of the things ive done or things on the whole, it just isnt worth it.
so it might just be the wise decision to get back to the shell and back off yet there is the need to find a balance between that and my own principles.
this could be just the thing i would be searching my whole life.
and please pardon my straightforwardness.
and one thing i realised with the lack of sleep for the past 2 weeks? i should keep my mouth shut after midnight.

caught happy flight with zj,min,val.
movie marathon-ed yesterday. new moon and couple's retreat.
jazz was playing at the esplanade.

Labels: rambles

♥ 12:45 PM

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

when someone says something shitty, u budge.

its inevitable when things do take a turn for the worse.
its all part and parcel of life.
it took me long enough to realise all that. and sceptism and suspicion are just the minor parts of it.
its just life. suck it up. there's no other way.

have been sleeping late these days. i could practically snooze anywhere.
i wake early but my reflexes and all are a tad too slow. so do notice i msg really slowly and thus, reply very slowly. shall sleep earlier today. reflexes should get better.
it sucks when i get stoned with beer.

i spent a lot a lot a lot of money the past few days.
and damn. i see the bank balance dropping like nobody's business. lol.

sometimes i realise sermons are inspiring. i might finally have stuff to work on.

Labels: emotivities, rambles

♥ 11:03 PM